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"I don't remember myself being this pathetic before...660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRmXsboZC2
I have no motivation left to try, I don't have any patience left in me...660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnKNbnajQn
I feel like I'm becoming more and more useless each day.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaBaq4MERr
And I know that i don't even try, but I get so anxious when I think about exams..."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnNbd1Irz0K
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"I'm scared of being left behind... forever."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3WCoehdWG
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"I'm scared that I might give up on myself."
Have I already given up on myself?
"It's rough, it's lonely... and I don't see a way out."
"Time waits for no one."
"I don't have the willpower to change, and I'm a master at justifying myself." 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMK2yKtfdw
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"We all have our ups and downs. We're human. It's incredibly hard to be consistent, since we're not machines (ISTJs go brrrr though). As long as we think, we'll keep on making excuses for ourselves... and that's normal. Everyone does it. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1G9iWIadVU
At the end of the day, you're worrying and thinking about your own future. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqUv1Cn36r
A person who thinks about changes, and is willing to change...660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RY83P8lft
Is absolutely not pathetic.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIOblfcwWWK
You're not garbage."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM6DQS1C4UZ
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"Being strong enough to get up and fight every day is a special talent. You never know, there might be someone very close to you doing it... just for you."
I know I don't work very hard, but I hate being told that more than almost everything. I hate it when my parents remind me that I've done nothing. I hate it when they tell me to do work. Stupid, isn't it?
I once told my parents that I would continue to feel inferior, worthless and unsuccessful if I don't make a decent salary in a few years. You know what they said?660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkET6XeUK02
"It's okay. You don't need to make money. You can live under our our roof forever."660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pEz7Y4Jw8
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I don't want that though. Despite everything, I want to live by my own efforts. I'm a mess, yet I don't want anyone's help. I mean, I can ask for help when I need it, but...660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNNTa3maE0
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Sorry, mum. Nothing's working out for you huh?660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ945RgwSXQn
You wasted all your money on all the sports, instruments, tutoring lessons on your son. 660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMNBFT4T8v
Your son didn’t meet all your expectations.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡotB8CvaYSA
Your son doesn't want to get married.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27i6WEiSuz
Your son might just end up a broke loser on the street.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe54uIUGOrI
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You know, you paid thousands of dollars for my overnight contact lenses, only for me to be too lazy to wear it.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDROQIvswIL
You paid another thousand for me to do that Duke of Edinburgh challenge, though I never submitted my report and ended up never getting the certification. I still never told you... to this day.
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I know I said I'd pay you back for everything you've given to me, but I don't know if I can.
I might just be the worthless child you tried so hard to prevent me being.
Hahaha.
I'm sorry, I'm just a coward, so I just want to run away. Take the easy way out.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uVcCEyHnS
I'm scared of failing, so.
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But today, too, I'm still alive. So even though I've accomplished nothing, even when it looks like there's no escape, I'll keep going. I have to keep going. I'll finish my degree. If I get a full-time job, so be it. If I don't, then that's fine. I might regret it. But at the end of the day, I'm alive. No matter how afraid I am for tomorrow, I'll have to face it. The main thing keeping me unhappy... is me.
Thanks for loving me. I'm sorry I can't love you back as of now, or maybe for a long time to come. But maybe one day, I will.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEadpdAt7R7
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Sincerely,660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyeyDlT2UB
Your son Charlie.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqcaCsRUUlK
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P.S. Screw you sis /j.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkSvMr5uUo
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... And on a whim, I sent a voice message containing all of this to my parents (it's 3am right now, but my parents are on vacation elsewhere). Saying it out loud is really something, huh.660Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjoXfZIaumH
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My mother just sent me back a hug emoji and "goodnight" as it was the last word of my voice message as well. Not going to lie, I think that's the best thing she's ever said or texted. I wonder if she'll write a long paragraph or send a long voice message back later.
and then Add to home screen.