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時間回逤至澤野翔業國中一年級,那時候是開學季,是生物獲得新生機的時刻,不過在醫院裡光景則不會因為季節替換,一年四季裡許多人都在此處留下辛苦的記憶,說是枯燥又或是乏味也不是,而是醫院從生以來就是這樣的地方。 927Please respect copyright.PENANAndrFrzhHAJ
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雖然心理疾病事實上已經存在於人們八十多年以上的歷史,只是這個地方心理學實際起步不出二十年裡的時間,久保悠太在一名老醫師身後,那時的他回國不久,從事外科相關的醫療,由於精神科當時心理醫生依舊缺乏,所以或多或少會一旁協助,也構築他第一次遇見當時的澤野翔業。
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"澤野翔業,對吧?最近有什麼讓你覺得痛苦困擾著你嗎?"927Please respect copyright.PENANAPGXNfMLSkw
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"沒有什麼特別的。"927Please respect copyright.PENANAzKykkL9bQ6
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"是嗎?要不要再多仔細想想看?不管任何事情的大小都可以嘗試說說看,這樣也許能多了解你。"927Please respect copyright.PENANAdbMWfL2sFL
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老醫生問診翔業時,悠太正在一旁聽著,「自殺,經本人訴說會聽見別人聽不見的話或者看見別人看不到的生物……憂鬱症、思覺失調……?」他匪夷所思,有些不理解老醫師給出的解論,「不、不對吧……?這不是只是照著公式而已?就算已經過了二、三年,也還是一樣?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAk6TUNaMMAZ
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「難道這是短暫沒辦法改變的現象嗎?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAD2vvw8AU1q
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「……」悠太觀察著眼前的翔業,手腕上包覆著滲血的白紗布,臉上沒有絲毫情感,這副模樣在悠太的經驗裡是屢次的現象,還是對於倦於答覆的翔業感到在意,「我最不想看見的就是這種情況啊……」 927Please respect copyright.PENANAamXwJCb4NS
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選擇性逃避在意目前的問診,假裝自己未曾知道於此事,對於久保悠太卻依舊是靈魂拷打,不可能真實不知情,翔業的問診結束過後,來到午餐時間悠太依然在意著,「就算不繼續了,我也過得很好吧,為什麼我還是……?」927Please respect copyright.PENANADVHzfGK8th
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"叮鈴—— 叮鈴————"927Please respect copyright.PENANAxCj2wZEwQp
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悠太的手機在此時此刻響起,來電顯示是來自他的母親,單只覺得這通電話來得不巧,接起來遲疑幾分鐘。927Please respect copyright.PENANAJtgNPiuzLA
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"你為什麼又給我去精神科?跟你爸爸一樣當個正常的醫生不好嗎?"927Please respect copyright.PENANA2gFnAoJPnh
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"從你小時候就叫你不要一直去靠近那種人,會被傳染!後來不是反悔了?現在又老是去那邊做什麼?"927Please respect copyright.PENANAjLOCAwsmTt
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這些話不外乎正是身為外人對於此專業的評價,母親的想法他也不是不理解,因此多半的時候還是聽於父母親的話,離開精神科悠太確實也少了許多煩惱,不知為什麼那顆心依然懸空於許久,「你懂什麼?靠近這些人的是你嗎?你知道我為什麼這麼喜歡嗎?少說些這種打擊人的話了!我想要好好當個心理醫生!」927Please respect copyright.PENANAB72Ec3MLrz
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將那些話說出口時,悠太趕緊把電話掛斷,大概是時機真的太過於不恰當,他扶著頭皺起眉,「我果然真的不想眼睜睜就只是看著……」927Please respect copyright.PENANA0BxUScXOeR
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「欸?你不是那個醫生嗎?原來你不是心理醫生?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAgqggqP7L5z
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「你、你是……那個,澤野翔業對吧?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAfUVxMHkpPT
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「對,你記得我?我第一次跟你碰面你也看過不少病人吧?還真是厲害?」927Please respect copyright.PENANACEErBnND6D
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不知何時,才察覺到翔業在斜對角吃著飯,他忽然自然地與悠太閒談起來,談吐間完全不像是陌生人,當下悠太開了口,「啊,讓你誤會了不好意思呢?我只是因為人手不足幫忙……」927Please respect copyright.PENANAKPb8iQiX7T
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「我沒誤會什麼吧?你感覺就是?你不是穿著醫生的袍子嗎?」翔業疑惑地看著悠太,他並不知情醫院的醫生也有各自領域,平時不干涉的事,「而且你聽起來很想當心理醫生?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAyeHIH52LcH
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雖然第一念頭想到被偷聽電話,悠太聯想到是自己講電話時太大聲在先,他帶著微笑回應了翔業,「嗯,是我從小時候一直很想成為的,我認為將自己的興趣變成職業就變得很好,我跟那時候還是一樣,只是現實環境不太接受我的存在。」927Please respect copyright.PENANA44HLiOzpzO
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「明明我只是個國中生,你卻沒瞧不起人,要是其他的大人就會說大人的事不要管,也可能直接敷衍我?」翔業說出他認為悠太不同於其他人的部分,「既然你都堅持這麼久,也這麼認真,少了這件事不是直接變得人生無趣了嗎?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAwiSuw3aO92
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「……?」悠太聽著恍然大悟,心中無法置信看著翔業,不過話並沒有說出口,只存在於心中對於翔業的真實答案,「太丟人了,這麼簡單的道理,我卻現在才……」 927Please respect copyright.PENANA10aTRGN9dZ
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「好好說出自己的想法吧?心理醫生?你明明已經是個心理醫生卻連這種事都辦不到,又是為什麼?」翔業橙色眼瞳直瞧著悠太的雙眼,此時就像立場交換般,悠太當下依舊愣著,不過也很快反應回來,最後回應了句,「謝謝你澤野先生,不過這是我的秘密呢?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAPqD2P9M2on
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「那之後我回到家裡,頭一次對我的父母親扛爭,就像叛逆的國中生,哈哈~?」回到現在悠太正面對櫻子,他笑著侃侃而談,「我父母他們對我著想的想法沒有不對,但連同我想走的路也是他們無法理解的,只是後來我也不像從前那樣子有強烈的熱情了,只在澤野身邊觀察著,注意著他吧……」927Please respect copyright.PENANAFI5xEnMThT
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「心理醫生是心的醫生的意思嗎?久保先生很了解心嗎?」櫻子也難以無法忽略心中所在意的事,面露擔心的神情,貌似也斟酌自己的說法,「還有……為什麼小業他自殺呢?他明明是那麼溫柔又憐愛的孩子?那樣的孩子不是應該幸福的嗎?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAmGdlnvE4P2
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「心的醫生啊……有著這麼明瞭的好名字為什麼又那麼多人無法理解呢?」悠太語氣平淡地像是自言語般說出自己的疑惑,雙眼再次正視櫻子,「我不是了解人心的人,我只知道我想試著知道所有的心……即使生病受傷的心,也還是寶貴的心喔,但是不好好做好照顧,會讓人死掉的,除了本人之外醫生就是重要的角色。」927Please respect copyright.PENANAnAsdRZBkjk
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「自殺這樣子的事,對於當事者來說是一種壯烈的決定,就像在戰場奮力不得已而赴死的戰士……」悠太搖著手上的水杯,喝下一口後持續說著,「澤野為什麼自殺,那也需要澤野本人願意說出口,才可以的,由我說出口就不對了,也許哪天澤野會跟妳提起,也可能哪天妳就自己察覺到什麼原因了?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAr26EqYmD5M
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櫻子聽著沉默下來地思考起來,對於櫻子來說時間不長,但是粗淺意識到翔業的改變,發現的人的變化快得難以掌握,幾乎所有事都脫離過去曾經相處過一年的翔業,多少也讓她低落起來,「……」927Please respect copyright.PENANAM5MTlXDwaw
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在此時休息室的門也打開來,「悠太,我入選男主角了!」翔業手中握著劇本,正得意地說出口時,也看見櫻子坐在悠太面前,「你們竟然不請互相先認識了嗎?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAc5HaCwpMoW
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悠太也見識到櫻子感覺低落,也趕緊招著手求救,「她、她……」927Please respect copyright.PENANAgBjWjYSeVf
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看著悠太吞吐的模樣,也注意到櫻子的心情,「……」他到櫻子面前,蹲在桌子的一旁望她,「怎麼了呢?」927Please respect copyright.PENANAo2wM4SoT1q
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櫻子看見翔業,直接傾身地抱向他,翔業也因此被撲倒到地上,嘴上說著他想對現階段翔業所說的,「小業……沒有忘記過你,我也不介意認識現在的你。」927Please respect copyright.PENANAjm8SrLIEve
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雖然被櫻子的行動給嚇了一跳,同時也聽進櫻子的話,「是不是聽了悠太那傢伙說什麼了?」他溫柔地撫摸櫻子的頭,「我才是,我是真的忘記妳了,很抱歉……謝謝了,回家吧?」927Please respect copyright.PENANA6k3B9B05qQ
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