「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQtFcoBtH7
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbajccJF5Q
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBL74su3m9N
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幼小我的父母就離異，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryJ4agSwuI
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP44Ka6zmKd
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對母親的記憶還是有，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73HvvItZ89
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記得她很常酗酒，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNRq9YkTs0
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後來的日子，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zoqwyWCOl
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4aiNQ9RnT
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忙於工作的他，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sEjJqv7tr
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UyU9BOBCe
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到了上課時間再直接上課，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFaFJpard0
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0vvg18CMd
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpssPEwTmo2
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3oH1M8QM8
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnL15k2IMx
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdnWfDlNm9
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父親工作的地方不一定，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzXy1Y8iN0
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輾轉的換了三所小學，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8503139GTC
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1MRqCUWkKv
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他開始會喜怒無常，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjFZUi6NL4C
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmvjHCRsLd
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdXpU56Yh7
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很小我就與異性交往，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7JujKsbGt
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigAQlV7gc1
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJqsZN9rHR
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbJdljxBTb
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我會睡在工地，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yISD4mo21
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RD1GHeL1Z
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpivqoGRb43
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2fwH8VQaAN
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他開始會講貶低的話語，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5WFGthhsH
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那些原本用來工作的用具，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqoOOAswR8
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBu9YLqKSNM
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd3yjtjp5t
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKksQyKzv3z
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGXLKGa7gN
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要我轉告給老師，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnaYPx0Lh4G
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnq2M3Lci6
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54RWHQOVbB
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFG1CJ8aHpv
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehRFY4EzZt
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細細去回想每個片段，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByujOFr8FU
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXukws51fe
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjaOdKZXms
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUgaRtaOQX
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfrmqXiEYg
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaChEBpKUPJ
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnqtfPx0Ou
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sSlautP6k
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ34isPLUTkV
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQnkvIR9SN
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTQWmmCM4v
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ywOrSRLYW
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正準備吃下第一口時，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtLvnqwHmcc
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IQjUHbsoU
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。770Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdni5ge77F
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