晚上,我遵循約定,帶著晚餐來找阿則。這次,研究室沒有緊閉,阿則人便在門口,如同他身後大敞的木板門,正等待著我的到來。300Please respect copyright.PENANAgF6oEAx9Ts
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不同以往,今天我們沒有在研究室共用晚餐。研究室深處有一個小樓梯,爬上階梯,推啟嵌在天花板的推門,漫天星斗就在我的眼前鋪展開來,半圓的穹窿張開雙臂,擁我於一片寂靜。300Please respect copyright.PENANAqonXsUwy5Y
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來到理學大樓的頂樓露台,四周唯有同行的我們與亙古不滅的星空。300Please respect copyright.PENANASnJ0JTlcXk
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「哇!」這讓我大開眼界,每天都會仰頭望視的夜空,也有這麼美的時候嗎? 300Please respect copyright.PENANANXgSbEST34
印象中,學校一帶因嚴重光害,能用肉眼細數的星星寥寥可數。可如今,獵戶座、大小犬座、御夫座等繁星卻奇蹟似地雀躍於往常沉默的夜幕。300Please respect copyright.PENANAr6gOFfMShM
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我與阿則席地而坐,卻一點也不在乎地上的灰塵是否多到會拂上褲子。眼前不管是人、時間或景物都像暫止了般,每一微動的剎那,都在轉瞬間化為永恆。300Please respect copyright.PENANAYBiYHmLAie
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「看妳心情不太好,不知道看看星空會不會舒服點?」黑夜裡,我看不到阿則的表情,只能從他的聲音想像他的眼神與笑容。他此刻柔暖的嗓音比平時看得見他的人時,更教我安心與感動。300Please respect copyright.PENANAFJLnhx84gI
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我稍稍挪動手臂,竟意外的擦碰到阿則溫暖的肌膚,原來我們兩個坐得如此靠近。300Please respect copyright.PENANAJKHrBqbD7x
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為什麼這麼替我著想?300Please respect copyright.PENANAD1CsDsR8uT
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明明只是這學期結束便不復再見的助教,卻要我稱呼他的小名,現在又帶我到無人知曉的頂樓露台看夜景與星辰。300Please respect copyright.PENANAlqJQcjmGZ6
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我想將毫無保留的自己和他分享,也想了解毫無保留的他,這是可以的嗎?300Please respect copyright.PENANAxs0s4608qK
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我不知道。300Please respect copyright.PENANAOxIJRxXuji
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但我此時好希望有人能夠告訴我,到底該怎麼辦?也希望有個無論如何,都會靜靜聽我娓娓訴說,願意貼近我內心深處的人。300Please respect copyright.PENANABzYBbNzdXs
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我向他坦露了一切。300Please respect copyright.PENANA9fkNhO6nHV
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我是一個就算重考兩年,依舊沒上目標校系,只能選擇相關科系就讀的笨蛋。300Please respect copyright.PENANACgKBo3NSzM
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每次意識到自己比同學硬是大個一到兩屆,都在在提醒我挫敗的事實。300Please respect copyright.PENANAkWffECqsqQ
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反觀弟弟不僅長得帥氣,還應屆考上使人仰望的國立醫科,成為家人無可替代,金招牌似的存在。300Please respect copyright.PENANADA5KTVuamf
雖然我愛我的弟弟,但我實在不敢在同學面前公開我們的關係,因為這段關係背後是我的年紀、我的失敗,以及相形之下我的失色。我也將昨天在醫學院樓梯發生的意外一併傾訴。300Please respect copyright.PENANAz9iI3H1Fnc
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直到最後一個字收尾,我調整好情緒與呼吸後,阿則才緩悠悠地說:300Please respect copyright.PENANACUIn5UkLa9
「妳說的是妳的實驗組員,叫李潔瑜的同學吧!她感覺不是妳所擔心的那種人,和她說清楚講明白,妳們的感情會更上一層樓。300Please respect copyright.PENANAq7oNZtAVFM
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妳很年輕,至少未來的路比我長太多了,必會有成功的一天,這是肯定的。每一條路上各有各的際遇。每一個際遇,不管順不順心,都有獨特的意義。300Please respect copyright.PENANATmnPnluhUv
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只要妳沒有忘記,將來的某時某刻,一定會對它出現的理由,以及存在的意涵恍然大悟。當然,妳弟弟也有他該面對的考驗,所以用不著那麼自卑。」300Please respect copyright.PENANAfVqKCbjAtM
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他的大意大致如此,雖然無法每字每句都記得清清楚楚,但他說這些話的語氣、飽含真摯的誠心,以及敞開心胸接納我最赤裸羞恥的溫情,已深深烙印在我的腦海裡。300Please respect copyright.PENANAxjtGCFLXnL
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際遇嗎?300Please respect copyright.PENANANA8uTdPBaK
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如果說這一切都是美好將來前的試煉與準備,我若還繼續抱持鴕鳥心態,只一味閃躲,非坦然面對,肯定會錯過更重要的人、事、物吧!300Please respect copyright.PENANAyTWQzdx1Lg
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如此一來,我還會成功嗎?300Please respect copyright.PENANArLTBuekzCw
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若說我當前最想珍惜一輩子的際遇是什麼,我第一個聯想到的,便是眼前的人,和與他共擁的璀璨星夜!300Please respect copyright.PENANAWEmOAYxEKd
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假設我沒選擇來到這裡,還能擁有這麼寶貴的回憶嗎?300Please respect copyright.PENANAF928aKRgSB
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「你說話的樣子好像老人啊。」我笑了,好久沒有那樣豁然的笑了,「也是啦,來到C大我也遇到不少不想忘記的事物。像我啊,是絕對不會忘記簡文則的。」300Please respect copyright.PENANAzxYI5gHrfA
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阿則並未馬上接話,他先是緘默了數秒,而後喃喃了幾個字,貌似是:「原來我會被記得啊......」300Please respect copyright.PENANAI6DVRzkYCc
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阿則答話也不是,沉默也不是的模樣,讓我忍不住的笑說:「當然囉!我會永遠記住你的名字與你的人。」300Please respect copyright.PENANAiuJ3AkYBjW
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「你是碩二嗎?快畢業了吧?」300Please respect copyright.PENANAqHHGbggQnm
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他聽到我的問題,頓了一會後才慢慢的應聲:「......對阿,要畢業了。」300Please respect copyright.PENANAmC6SJzghD8
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他的聲音有點沉重,卻有著獨有的渾厚沉柔,彷彿畢業這件事帶給他繾綣的眷戀。300Please respect copyright.PENANAFlKjQdMWgf
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「希望你能找到理想的工作,像你這樣直往自己的目標邁進的人,未來一定不可限量。」300Please respect copyright.PENANAxyV5uslUvr
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說這句話時,儘管我看不見,卻能感受到他帶著呵護與珍愛的注視。那一刻,我總算理解前些日子心底各種奇怪的波動究竟是怎麼一回事了。那不是瘋了,也不300Please respect copyright.PENANAhsPT3DXYue
是吃錯藥,是我喜歡上這個人了。
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