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店員爽快從身後陳列架取來貨品，熟練在收銀機屏幕上點點按按，然後給我贈品——果汁味肉乾三小包。我有意無意瞄了瞄她的臉。大眾臉，過目即忘。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43T1jhhpDw
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櫥窗五光十色，路人絡繹不絕。人潮亂中有序，不約而同在紅色燈號前止住，然後在綠色燈號亮起當刻同時邁步。一致得神奇，一致得可怕。並肩而行的男男女女在過路以後分道揚鑣，不為曾經的遇見生起任何印象或猶豫。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVjU9dYXUU
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為何要到這種地方來？不是捷徑，不知盡頭何處，不懷目的……400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgdOLeUi5TE
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小巷盡處是另一小巷，盡頭以後是另一開始。路接路，走又走。不停前行，像是正在找出口；絕不回頭，像是不打算找到真正出口。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXuTNJPJqF
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厭煩日常走過的路，不欲重覆。若問想要到甚麼地方去，其實我沒有答案。很奇妙。眼下似乎有很多選擇，實質一切已成定局。那是大街，這是小巷。大街在明，小巷在暗。大街繁華，小巷冷清。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHreJ7ZbVsJ
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冷清小巷盡頭會有好東西麼？我不相信，亦不願輕言不相信。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mCKOUmaqY
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停步。猶疑。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4MYV28VSdD
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惻隱？慈悲？然後呢？根本沒有然後，因為我自顧不暇。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiFuoOtskj
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轉身。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXRfdDQQgm
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多拐兩個彎，我帶著小狗在兩幢高樓之間走出來，恰巧看見銀月自海平面升起。清澄，純淨，圓滿。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZfzMwL5Da
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汪——牠回答，但沒有依指示抬頭。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4mKoY0JdV
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「找個好地方坐坐吧！」為免小狗中途跑掉，我微微拉下外套拉鏈，把小狗往內塞。牠沒反抗，甚至懂得稍為伸出頭部，方便呼吸和看風景。我真慶幸剛才沒有對牠視若無睹：「乖。」400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡih701dnC2j
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銀月清冷，步道冷清，寧靜。心跳規律，呼吸有序，乏味。回憶很多，未知更多，迷惘。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfIPCc83HV
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「我上一次來海濱公園是小學畢業後的那個暑假。與幾個特別要好的男生相約到來踩roller，跌了幾跤，膝蓋流血。明明怕血，明明怕痛，偏偏為保面子而強說無事，硬撐一整天。結果翌日膝蓋腫黑大片，痛得要命，不得不到醫院求醫。結果在醫院留醫足足兩個月，九月中才可到新學校上課。」我在路邊長椅坐下，拆開一包贈品肉乾給小狗充飢，報答牠聽我發牢騷。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzT6nodIdR2
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「留醫期間，我生氣朋友們不來探望我，打算出院後臭罵他們一頓。出院後，我忙於學校課業，忘記致電他們，然後順理成章忘記他們。當我再次想起他們，已是高中畢業的事。」我點菸，一吸一呼，虛假短暫的舒爽。「其實沒甚麼大不了，無需要記在腦袋裡。但事情就是發生過，不是說忘記就可以忘記。」400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRS3WNRjzjc
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記憶零碎，思路紊亂。嘴巴想要表達更多，無奈腦袋運轉不來，沒能將感受化為言語……算了吧。反正小狗根本沒興趣聽下去。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEM0IaWeAem
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「你似乎對肉乾比較有興趣。」我又拆開一包肉乾予牠。牠吃得津津有味，舌頭不時舔舔嘴邊，甚至舔到小小鼻頭。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOxCzbYZH0b
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又吸一口虛假短暫的舒爽。又呼一口難以言喻的鬱悶。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vfSpQ7yg8
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鬱悶何來？400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzIO9GCdf8k
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學業壓力？愛情煩惱？家庭不和？400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwO9gvqwEqp
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多件零星不順心瑣碎事湊在一起成為一股無法消弭的鬱悶。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYH5eVeCU3E
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有如一根經過繁複工序生產的香菸。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIUQW39k1b
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有如一塊由豬肉、糖、鹽、增味劑、醬油、香辛料、護色劑、色素組成的肉乾。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2XF3hZvD6
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「好吃吧。」我又拆開一包肉乾。趁小狗專心咬嚼，我彈走菸屁股，將牠從懷裡抽出，來個深深擁抱。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmRf0gbkQKE
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然後呢？根本沒有然後。400Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BUKStnZsI
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