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"I don't remember myself being this pathetic before...662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN35bjVI4V
I have no motivation left to try, I don't have any patience left in me...662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡucM7y1Ee6Z
I feel like I'm becoming more and more useless each day.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKgFaXte8n
And I know that i don't even try, but I get so anxious when I think about exams..."662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzms8tf3BhG
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"I'm scared of being left behind... forever."662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOUylPJkox
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"I'm scared that I might give up on myself."
Have I already given up on myself?
"It's rough, it's lonely... and I don't see a way out."
"Time waits for no one."
"I don't have the willpower to change, and I'm a master at justifying myself." 662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktflQDYxTE
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But...662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cv9dg3ZZK
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"We all have our ups and downs. We're human. It's incredibly hard to be consistent, since we're not machines (ISTJs go brrrr though). As long as we think, we'll keep on making excuses for ourselves... and that's normal. Everyone does it. 662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8MsH7mlyP
At the end of the day, you're worrying and thinking about your own future. 662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIE3KI8DaDs
A person who thinks about changes, and is willing to change...662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTbxv5SwGz
Is absolutely not pathetic.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKUPFKpvixR
You're not garbage."662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7rURoeEmG
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"Being strong enough to get up and fight every day is a special talent. You never know, there might be someone very close to you doing it... just for you."
I know I don't work very hard, but I hate being told that more than almost everything. I hate it when my parents remind me that I've done nothing. I hate it when they tell me to do work. Stupid, isn't it?
I once told my parents that I would continue to feel inferior, worthless and unsuccessful if I don't make a decent salary in a few years. You know what they said?662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LX4EULmgP
"It's okay. You don't need to make money. You can live under our our roof forever."662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUa9k8ptW7
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I don't want that though. Despite everything, I want to live by my own efforts. I'm a mess, yet I don't want anyone's help. I mean, I can ask for help when I need it, but...662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaPs4EPPVX
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Sorry, mum. Nothing's working out for you huh?662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cTAAgWCba
You wasted all your money on all the sports, instruments, tutoring lessons on your son. 662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaBtfroqnv
Your son didn’t meet all your expectations.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeDlxdZIZjx
Your son doesn't want to get married.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDwIAheV3s
Your son might just end up a broke loser on the street.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9VLAoYH8z
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You know, you paid thousands of dollars for my overnight contact lenses, only for me to be too lazy to wear it.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbOKYvA588
You paid another thousand for me to do that Duke of Edinburgh challenge, though I never submitted my report and ended up never getting the certification. I still never told you... to this day.
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I know I said I'd pay you back for everything you've given to me, but I don't know if I can.
I might just be the worthless child you tried so hard to prevent me being.
Hahaha.
I'm sorry, I'm just a coward, so I just want to run away. Take the easy way out.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxZyqMFOrp
I'm scared of failing, so.
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But today, too, I'm still alive. So even though I've accomplished nothing, even when it looks like there's no escape, I'll keep going. I have to keep going. I'll finish my degree. If I get a full-time job, so be it. If I don't, then that's fine. I might regret it. But at the end of the day, I'm alive. No matter how afraid I am for tomorrow, I'll have to face it. The main thing keeping me unhappy... is me.
Thanks for loving me. I'm sorry I can't love you back as of now, or maybe for a long time to come. But maybe one day, I will.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsfPnD6TKD
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Sincerely,662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntGnpM5Bou
Your son Charlie.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbQyDHlQj5
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P.S. Screw you sis /j.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62WTF62nDw
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... And on a whim, I sent a voice message containing all of this to my parents (it's 3am right now, but my parents are on vacation elsewhere). Saying it out loud is really something, huh.662Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk8L2hEw07S
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My mother just sent me back a hug emoji and "goodnight" as it was the last word of my voice message as well. Not going to lie, I think that's the best thing she's ever said or texted. I wonder if she'll write a long paragraph or send a long voice message back later.
and then Add to home screen.