大家好,我叫陳子鋒,今年三十歲。529Please respect copyright.PENANAt9giQCD0sv
故語有云,三十而立,而我,三十歲仍是一事無成。529Please respect copyright.PENANAp70b0L0mK2
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就在大半年前,我和我的女朋友阿雪,正式宣佈,結束了十年的愛情長跑。529Please respect copyright.PENANAIY9htkVdfC
但,愛情長跑的結束,不是因為踏入人生另一階段,而是字面上的意思,我們的關係,真的結束了,玩完了!529Please respect copyright.PENANAvG85VRLrCF
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坦白說,我的心真的很痛,我甚至不知道,這大半年我是怎樣撐過來的。尤其是每當碰上大時大節,我會變得更加敏感,悲傷的感情從心底裡不斷湧出來。529Please respect copyright.PENANAW9hS0AIGOV
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可能大家會以為,都已經大半年了,甚麼也應該放下了吧。529Please respect copyright.PENANApim7dTlD8r
我也曾經天真的以為,我應該瀟灑得一星期便能復原,但事實往往不從人願,可能我也太看輕了這十年的時間吧。529Please respect copyright.PENANAA2YnsKt60D
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總之,說白了,就是此時此刻,我還沒有放下心中的那個她。529Please respect copyright.PENANAxBCt0b1gwV
每個節日,也不自覺的,尋找著她的身影和我倆的回憶。529Please respect copyright.PENANAStMEnu5A2p
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今天,正好是冬至,按照慣例,我今天放工比平時要來得早,大約四時左右便可以走了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAcGzuyexKYE
還記得去年,基本上還沒有等到四時,我已經收拾好一齊,以便我能夠以最快的速度,去妳公司附近迎接妳,並一起回我家,和家人好好的吃一頓晚飯。529Please respect copyright.PENANAZZEMfqmJCz
但今年,我則在公司慢條斯理的等待著,待所有同事都離去後,我才慢慢回家。我不想和同事走在一起的時候,聽著他們和自己的另一伴,準備到哪裡做節,這樣我實在忍受不了。529Please respect copyright.PENANArRENSKwsT9
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當然,避開了同事,不代表其他途人不會談論,但至少,我可以戴上耳機,沉浸在音樂的世界裡吧。529Please respect copyright.PENANAb0g3NsPRyx
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坐上巴士後,和往年一樣,讓塞的還是會塞,車子在路上緩慢的行駛著。529Please respect copyright.PENANApb6N6EqcKd
說真的,我並不特別喜歡坐巴士,尤其是在一些特別的節日,因為以香港的情況來說,塞車是不可避免的。529Please respect copyright.PENANAtT2LDYa9FD
而妳卻不同,說這樣便能多點時間休息,如有足夠精神,又可欣賞車外的風景,或是和我談心。529Please respect copyright.PENANAw5lA5j9PAy
妳就是這麼奇怪,總能把不好的事情,想像得很正面,慢慢的,我也開始享受塞車這種「樂趣」了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAFfOZ1Mvw8c
但很奇怪,同樣的巴士,同樣的路線,此刻我再沒有以往的快樂,也沒有好心情去欣賞車外的事物。529Please respect copyright.PENANAZZs3nUfq1k
有的,只是厭煩的心情,和想盡快回到家中休息。529Please respect copyright.PENANA5tWYqh4YCv
原來,我的心情從來不是因為其他事或物而感到快樂,快樂的原因,從來只有一個,對,就是因為妳,我的前度,阿雪。529Please respect copyright.PENANArhfU590iE2
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也不知塞了多久,這漫長的車程總算完結,可以下車了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAcSIBcuDYuY
當我踏出車外,正想把我的手遞給妳,讓妳安全下車。529Please respect copyright.PENANA0U9lUkzIsy
當我回頭的一瞬間,我才發現妳根本不在我身後,那半舉起來的手,顯得很屹突,從車上下來的乘客都向我投以奇怪的目光,我才懂得慢慢把手放下,轉身離開。529Please respect copyright.PENANAn34eIbfHev
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下了車後,我沒有立即回家,而是到了附近的串燒店。529Please respect copyright.PENANAKwcDh1SO2M
九龍城這裡美食雲集,貪吃的妳總是會在這附近走上幾圈,然後有節制地選擇其中一檔食店,買少許東西來滿足貪吃的慾望。529Please respect copyright.PENANAxLNdypm0pE
而這家串燒店,則是妳最愛的小吃店。每次總要點上數串串燒,才會心滿意足的離開。529Please respect copyright.PENANAUSudtRWiX7
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而我卻忘記了,此刻我只有一個人,跟老闆買了四串串燒後,才發現有點多。529Please respect copyright.PENANAp7FWxqmT8Z
但既然都買了,可不能浪費,我站在一旁,慢慢地吃起了這些串燒來。529Please respect copyright.PENANAWknxc2cAas
是退步了嗎?感覺沒有以往那般好吃。529Please respect copyright.PENANAN39F7S575S
還是說,以往所以好吃,不是因為食材好,味道好,只是因為和妳在一起,甚麼也變得美好起來。529Please respect copyright.PENANAcX0zP9nTSh
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把串燒都消滅後,口渴的感覺隨即襲來,如果妳在的話,應該已經從妳的袋子裡拿出一支只有半滿的水,然後我倆分著喝。529Please respect copyright.PENANAWzfDkSAx8n
而現實是,我當然不可能隨身帶著瓶裝水,於是我稍為繞了點遠路,走向水果店,想買點果汁喝。529Please respect copyright.PENANAbnif3yOFtq
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「老闆,唔該,要杯金柚葡萄汁。」529Please respect copyright.PENANAUc9AYtgiF0
「吓,哥哥,我地無賣好耐啦,飲其他啦,呢杯西柚汁正呀,健康呀,試下啦。」529Please respect copyright.PENANAQSqDN4rsLd
「哦,咁……咁好啦,俾杯西柚汁我。」529Please respect copyright.PENANAoYJbzV6qTG
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我接過西柚汁,又陷入了回憶之中。529Please respect copyright.PENANAzuv8QL35eF
還記得大學時期,妳最愛喝的就是這家店的金柚葡萄汁。529Please respect copyright.PENANAESWd4lbjgz
之後每次來我家,或是來九龍城吃飯,總會在這裡買一杯金柚葡萄汁來喝。529Please respect copyright.PENANAWCowUt4mCB
好像也飲了七至八年了,那時還笑著說,可以在這家店一直飲到老呢。529Please respect copyright.PENANAa4i3qo14R6
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怎料到只是大半年的時間,這家店已經沒有再賣這種果汁了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAaOprYkCTnf
人會變,事會變,物會變……想不到這麼簡單的道理我也弄不清。529Please respect copyright.PENANAsewvasLe6T
可能,我只是一廂情願的,以為所有東西仍能保持舊貌罷了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAkfvsSKQ9xC
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「哇,好澀。」我把手上的西柚汁喝了一口。529Please respect copyright.PENANA8IkF6rIXmt
我還是第一次喝到這種苦澀的果汁,但細味下,好像還不錯。529Please respect copyright.PENANAw8g1y4ENJ5
只是,我仍然很懷念那杯甜甜的金柚葡萄汁。529Please respect copyright.PENANAK6CTZjfZeL
看來,要適應這新的果汁,我還需要一點時間。529Please respect copyright.PENANAwuaEJwFVzx
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吃也吃過了,喝也喝過了,也是時候回家了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAwgQECzbaF4
回到家中,桌上早已擺放好所有餐具。529Please respect copyright.PENANAbf28NYdpF9
一、二、三……六,咦,奇怪?明明我們家只有五個人,為甚麼卻有六副餐具?529Please respect copyright.PENANAmCtDzoCp6S
該不會他們為阿雪準備了碗筷吧?529Please respect copyright.PENANAwS03I80QXO
我正想跟他們說,今天晚上只有我一個人時。529Please respect copyright.PENANAcb5se4Vh5Y
答案出現了,我的哥哥帶了女朋友回來吃飯。529Please respect copyright.PENANA16RO5SQ83h
一輪介紹後,我們便開始吃飯了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAtzoHGF0bzs
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沒有甚麼特別的東西,和往年一樣,也是青紅蘿蔔煲豬踭,加上一鍋盤菜。529Please respect copyright.PENANAzJna9kcCgH
連坐的位子,用的碗筷,也全都一樣。529Please respect copyright.PENANAjs1ud6bhI1
同樣的食物,同樣的湯水,同樣數量的餐具,只是人不同了,心情不一樣了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAXPJhJj7E7H
但有些東西是不會變的,家人間的親情和溫暖感,仍然保持著。529Please respect copyright.PENANA8ByxIDfP02
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這樣便足夠了,即使有多難過,即使有多困難,即使生活再不順暢,這樣子一家人能聚在一起,已經很足夠了。529Please respect copyright.PENANAW0IPog6aLM
於這一刻,我好像真的放下了阿雪,內心亦祝褔她和她的家人,能溫馨的渡過今天。529Please respect copyright.PENANASaHneXctzB
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但吃過晚飯,收拾好碗筷,回到房中,我又想起她了!529Please respect copyright.PENANADwjt4CGThU
有人可以告訴我,如何才能忘記她嗎?529Please respect copyright.PENANAVb0D1MjoX0
痛,很痛,今年的冬至,顯得特別寒冷。529Please respect copyright.PENANArpzfLQh983
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