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     For long minutes, I stroke Jessy's wet hair, trying to soothe his pain, his fears. When he straightens his face, he seems ashamed to have cried in my arms. Delicately, I wipe away his last tears, surprised that he lets me do it, and smile at him to reassure him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvF1Db1CdmI
    We set off on our way back in torrential rain, yet we walk peacefully, savoring the fact of being together. I don't care if it rains as long as I'm with him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuZbaqWz0e
    — Anyway, we're already soaked, I answer Jessy when he asks me if I want to run to get to his house faster. It'll be OK ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡik0aSORNbq
    — Yeah, I think so.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd7N4FMAsnQ
    — Jessy, please promise me you’ll never let yourself fall into the void like that again. I got the fright of my life.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcnu1HkLk4
    Hands in his pockets, he shrugs his shoulders and breathes deeply before telling me : 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwXISscmT1
    — Promise. Why do you care about me so much ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8TKW2khF08
    His question makes my heart beat faster. I'm not ready to tell him the feelings he inspires in me. I have to analyze them first and try to find out what he feels. So even though I feel my cheeks turning pink, I answer him evasively.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYx0tCHobl
    — Why not ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9V8bJnrohY
    — When people learn about AIDS, they turn their backs on me. This is why my mother and I came to live here. Even my father-in-law couldn't stand me living under his roof anymore.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRBHJuz74f
    — There are morons everywhere, I whisper. Jessy, I like you. I'm not going to start ignoring you because you have a health problem.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwOp6Im2Pz
    — Thank you, he murmurs, pursing his lips. I'm sorry for everything I said to you. I didn't mean to be so rude.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFvNDo9uvI
    His unexpected apology really makes me happy. When Jessy stops telling me off, I see in him the boy I had guessed at first glance : A good guy to whom difficult things happen. I think that's why he always tries to show an angry face, he has suffered so much that he doesn't want people to perceive his fragility.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWV2wAcizmw
    — It's forgotten. By the way, I met your mother. She seems very nice.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEvd9yWEQo
    Despite our slow walk, we already arrive in front of his house.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx75OxxHwcD
    — She is. Do you want me to take you home ? I can borrow his car.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nqdPGwzBD
    — No, it is going to be fine. I don't want to get the seats soggy, I smile. See you tomorrow ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyS8G7Jq2s
    I am happy to see him nod with a big smile. And as I walk away, I realize I've never been closer to him than I am tonight.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDNl80NINn
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    It's almost 11 p.m. when I get home, completely soaked. My parents are waiting for me, impatient and worried.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGw0mBxExg1
    — Finally, here you are, my father roared. Look at you, you're good at wringing ! 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95xqfTgl6m
    — Were you with Jessy ? My mother asks in her usual soft voice.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PaF1Wb43h
    I nod, shivering from the cold.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNwsPxTTrJ
    — We spoke with Mrs. Sutter at the meeting. She told us that her son had been missing for hours and that she had no idea where he might be. She was very worried about him, my father told me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgH93ogOJRB
    — He went back home. How did the meeting go ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDJ2U2rDYh
    — Start by drying off, we'll tell you later.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7ZyVlcCkj
    I head into the bathroom where I warm up quickly and quickly put on my pajamas, as well as a warm dressing gown, as I can't wait to see how the evening unfolds. I find my parents in the living room, where everyone, in an armchair, drinks coffee while waiting for me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRm56FGPWS
    — So how did it go ? I said, sitting across from them on the couch.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOMoAeAWxAT
    — Difficult to say, my father grimaces. The principal had asked a doctor to come and answer the parents' questions. It calmed some when he assured their children were not at risk of breathing the same air as Jessy or touching him. But other parents are obtuse and want him to be expelled at all costs. They are simply scared to death, to the point of not understanding that AIDS is not caught like that.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDovfYT1vb
    — Mrs. Sutter spoke, saying how much she loves her son and that there is no risk in sharing his life since she has been doing it for a year without problem, my mother added. She is a very dignified and courageous woman. She told us you came to see her.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlLg0BV2iVx
    — Indeed, I was looking for Jessy.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Eyu4QoMAS
    — Nina told us that you went looking for him after Chad’s visit. Did you find it ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYcNBjZl7V
    — Yes, and as far as you know, it’s over between Chad and me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRB3YFAL0VH
    Contrary to what I thought, my father doesn't seem surprised. My mother must have already told him about it. However, I don't like the look they exchange before my mother asks me : 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1nvqzE6pbk
    — Because of Jessy ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8jgJowxiX
    — Yes and no. Jessy and I are friends. But let’s say that meeting him allowed me to open my eyes to Chad and his little world. I realized that, contrary to what I believed, I am not in love with him. I like him a lot but in a friendly way.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxnPL2z4dO
    Once again my parents exchange this strange look which seems to mean that they are not at the end of their trouble with me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjQfVT7wkj
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    The next morning, when I arrived near the school, I saw Jessy waiting outside on the sidewalk.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2fbdFE27m
    — Hi, how are you ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeznt2tqeRY
    He puts a hand to his heart.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGFr5gfsHz
    — Oh, you scared me ! 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmPAyuBK6o
    I burst out laughing.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ11mPRlFb
    — That’s for the scare you gave me last night ! 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeKo3ccsS4c
    — It’s fair game, he smiled.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLd3cXowKm
    He stares at the large white building without taking a step towards it. Since I stayed in his arms the day before for several minutes, he no longer intimidates me as much, and this impression of knowing him for a long time has strengthened. I saw his fragility behind his anger, I saw his despair, but also his strength.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPfgTKNytSU
    — Are you planning to come to class today ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJJdMIkd9C
    — I don't know. After what happened yesterday...and then this meeting.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX6TF7YW89u
    He huffs and then purses his lips, visibly uncomfortable.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53CUUriidd
    — Did your mother tell you ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskJTWCkZzB
    — Yes, apparently the parents can't do anything against me, but there is always the possibility that they will contact the academy and file a complaint to have me fired. In fact, I wonder if it wouldn't be better if I gave up... 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5WI0LWDiV
    — No way ! 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQos5p4ODwT
    Jessy looks at me, surprised.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vSnbqqrRx
    — We'll go together and everything will go well, you'll see.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklZpobKBN2
    — There are looks that are sometimes hard to bear, he admits to me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDx6pkZWk54
    However, I notice that he accompanies me towards high school.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Zmd5HAPQz
    — I believe that, unfortunately, you can never please everyone, so give a chance to know you to those who want it and forget the morons.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkFUnGvXmd
    We enter the main hallway, students turn to look at us as I continue talking so that he focuses more on my voice than on the eyes focused on him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmRdfwjj1C
    — With time, there will be those who will realize who you really are and they will come to you, as for those who continue to criticize you, act as if they don't exist. They're the idiots, not you.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUhCBfZQhXZ
    I meet the gaze of a tall guy, named Tyler, who grimaces when he hears me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduFa845RkM
    — Yes, complete idiots, I said again in a louder voice.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkCv55gryJ
    Jessy gives me a grateful smile.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbR2oBK47UD
    — Oh, it’s getting bad, he murmurs.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYxglzYCHA
    I follow his gaze and see Chad striding towards us. He stands in front of Jessy and, after a few seconds of hesitation, offers his hand.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0m8Ror7nE
    — I'm sorry for yesterday. For the fight…and everything else. I should never have listened to your conversation and above all I should never have repeated his secret. I'm really sorry.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjnp5v6yTx
     Jessy hesitates for a few seconds then squeezes his hand, nodding.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIM5ItbGmD
    — Thanks.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvEmAPSfIW
    His eyes move from Jessy to me, he doesn't seem to know how to behave around me anymore.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj5FGgHoUqF
    Around us, several students observe the scene. Chad is the most popular boy in school and I suspect that after this reconciling handshake, the attitude of some people will change.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsR4mMT2n9
    He taps Jessy on the shoulder and says — See you later and walks away.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0BCMRxRyKu
    — It’s weird that Chad came to apologize. Did you ask him to do it ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMKqLUKWfa
    — No, he did it alone, but you know, he’s like that. He is impulsive, but quickly regrets his outbursts... I feel, more than I see, Jessy looking at me in profile.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKScBPyYxPk
    — What ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV91LDTH8rj
    I turn my head towards him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcbk8UdMj6
    — Why did you break up ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLyg3xdrRB
    — We are too different.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCg67dtAyy
    I shrug my shoulders as if it were obvious.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGY7VRc4wuC
    — And are you okay ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDHLSvbB5WC
    I see in his eyes that he really cares about me, it warms my heart.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNwohyPgrY
    — Alright.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzc41W2JsMf
    A small smile appears at the corners of his lips.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QPapFNeHx
    — I know you don't like Chad very much, but erase that little smug look. (I smile in turn as the bell rings for the start of classes.) We're going to be late, come on.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9r8eiLpNh
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    In the days that followed, things calmed down at the school. I can't say that Jessy goes unnoticed, but he is seen less as an outcast, which is already a small victory. At school, I was always the model student, collecting good grades. The super serious girl who has the teachers on her side. When I dated Chad, who is the most popular guy, I became popular and other girls tended to take their cues from me. So, even if there are a few who look away and whisper as she passes, most of the students are starting to accept Jessy. Since the evening on the bridge, we have spent a lot of time together. I prefer to be with him rather than with my pseudo friends : Pearl and especially Amy, who has turned her back on me since Chad and I separated.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgjKf2AXjE
    Jessy has become my best friend. I can talk to him about everything without being afraid that he will judge me; however, he always gives me his honest opinion.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxaDIVCECJJ
    Jessy lived surrounded by family and friends before learning of his HIV status, but he told me that when those close to him learned of his illness, everyone turned their backs on him and, overnight, he found himself abandoned. Only his mother remained near him. By moving to Millisky where Mrs. Sutter found a job as a secretary in a bank, she hoped that her son would finally be able to return to a normal life.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdKcaXA6H2
    The more I get to know him and the less I want this solitary life for him, it's like a kind of mission that I have set for myself. I may not be able to save him, but I can make him smile again. Also, I force him to accompany me to the cinema, to the theater, to fast food. Jessy complains, protests, sometimes drags his feet, but in the end, I always make him give in.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqaJrP4EfPu
    — You've lived locked up enough like that ! » is my key phrase to convince him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDu4eHzpaQ
    He then rolls his eyes, huffing in exasperation while his cross— shaped earring swings to the rhythm of his breathing. Finally, he looks at me with a little smile which alone symbolizes my victory.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskZhVlO3XZ
    I am myself with him. We have a lot of tastes in common, we laugh at the same jokes, we talk about everything and nothing without ever getting tired of it. And when I'm not with him, he haunts my mind. He is the first person I think of in the morning when I wake up and the last in the evening before I go to sleep. In a few weeks, it has invaded my life and I hope more than anything that it continues as long as possible.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9f8kuBMxB
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    — Hello Mrs. Sutter, are you well ? I say happily as I enter the living room, accompanied by Jessy.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAtzM5ClgQx
    Over the past few weeks, I've been spending so much time at the Sutters' that it feels like my second home. I really like Jessy's mother. Just by his look, we perceive his kindness and his strength. I am always welcome at their home and even though Jessy can come to my house whenever he wants, I understand that he is more comfortable in his environment.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsjh7Wt66n
    — Good Meg and you ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGxR49IJYYt
    — I’m fine.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPQtbGnW4E
    Elise gets up while Jessy goes to turn on the television.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1xXxcHbzBx
    — What movie are you going to watch ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlMv2dTpDI
    — Ghost ! With a big smile, I show the video tape I brought, asking him : Are you staying to watch it with us ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUHChiuyJm
    — Unfortunately, I can't. I have not finished completing a loan application for a client. I’m going to go lock myself in my room with this file, she sighs.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCf2lsAWrR
    — Good luck, Mrs Sutter. 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPqVt8DZlC
    She takes a few steps away before turning back to me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuO1iRoDsh
    — Meg, for the hundredth time, call me Elise.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFVFIWm7mB
    — I'll try, I promise.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSWbawyXhs
    His mother leaves the room, leaving us alone.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPRmvPQuocc
    — Pop corn ? Jessy asks me. I only have salty, I don't like sweet.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGvzbe8SyG
    — That suits me very well.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkB6dqY3pjo
    Once the popcorn is in a large bowl, we sit on the sofa in front of the television. Almost two hours later, I overcame my fear that he would send me away for daring to lean my head on Jessy's shoulder. To my great relief, he just smiled as he continued to watch the film. Now that it is ending, I can no longer contain my emotion and shed many tears.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGVJ1Qx2GHY
    — Don’t make fun, I said, seeing him laugh discreetly.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNyCQjtBpxl
    I stand up and stretch before wiping my eyes.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQUmkaKAIk
    — Patrick Swayze is too sexy, I comment.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUw67xvcNpp
    — Demi Moore is not to be outdone, he sighs, lowering his head.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FieLwWwRJ
    He suddenly seems sad, which worries me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOm0T1GCUou
    — Isn't that okay ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZNhBHcS16
    — Yes, it’s just that… Do you believe that the afterlife exists ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKY8J2vEHux
    Still sitting on the couch, I turn to him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGyo0z8IMZ
    — I think yes. However, I don't know if it's like in this movie.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQQxgEgvj0i
    He adopts the same position as me, we find ourselves face to face.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ikxAZV0D0
    — If that’s the case, I’ll make sure to let you know when I get there.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17IHRl8bQf
    I wasn't expecting this response which took me completely by surprise. New uncontrollable tears flood my face. Reality suddenly reminds me. When I am with Jessy, I forget his illness because he is him, the boy I love with all my heart even if he knows nothing about my feelings. But there, faced with the virus, I find myself facing its imminent death. It’s a horrible thing that I try not to think about, as if that could prevent it from happening. I know this is stupid and despite all my efforts, AIDS still remains in the back of my mind. But hearing Jessy talk about his departure is upsetting. I would love to tell him that I am in love with him and that he has no right to leave me, ever. However, this is one of the subjects that I cannot discuss with him as I am sure that he would send me away again. He needs support, so I'm content to be his friend, secretly hoping that one day he'll realize that I mean more to him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEKE5V11iT
    — What do you have ? He is surprised.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XEKmtYoUS
    — I don't want you to die Jessy ! 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kFxxfaRaf
    I burst into tears as I threw myself on his neck. Immediately, he hugs me back.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJhmVyk3b4
    — Don’t cry, he whispers in my ear. I don't like seeing you sad.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjCLYRuXaVy
    His heart beating wildly against my chest reminds me that he is still very much alive and that as long as that is the case, we must not lose hope.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlDBSNCQqn
    Staring at him, I detach myself from him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdNmjXIoj2
    — You're going to fight to stay alive, aren't you ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyKw2W8soBT
    He strokes a lock of my hair that falls to the side of his face while observing me attentively. He seems to weigh the weight of his words.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeD5ufrHIO
    Finally, he nods in agreement.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkSnyZrfbQ
    — I have confidence in the future and in medicine. They will find a cure, it’s just a matter of time, I resume with confidence.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cEtL7QX8T
    — Meg, we've already talked about this. You can't save me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4pl8kK5Jl
    He lowers his head but I have time to see his eyes fill with tears.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8yhrYlHIL
    — I know... For the moment, but I can keep hope, I smile, wiping away the last tears that linger on my cheeks.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHWajk2TjV
    Mrs. Sutter enters the room at this moment, breaking our moment of complicity.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoyD5eEQDl
    — Megan, are you crying ? She worries, looking at us in turn. And you too ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSb421wYo3
    Jessy and I exchange a look before bursting out laughing under the surprised gaze of Elise.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVOzRyKcXc
    — I’m going to go home, I announce, leaving the sofa.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOiv7IzY38
    — I'll take you back.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2LD4jZcOOV
    — No, it is going to be fine. I need to get some fresh air.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6XackORX3X
    Above all, I need to expel from my body this disorder that I am trying to control, and also to silence my fears about its future. Kindly, he will get me my coat. After putting it on, I turn to him and take him in my arms. For a few more seconds, I want to feel him against me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaH2LP2vMQ
    — Do me a favor, hold on to life, I whisper in his ear.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmtr0vElX1
    Emu, he acquiesced.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22toiBn4tg
    When I leave the warmth of his arms, I see Elise watching us from the kitchen, she wears a little knowing smile, which makes me understand that she knows perfectly well how I feel about her son.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww2CIj4xc3
    — Good night, see you tomorrow ! I throw before going out.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkZ0glTdXI
    I take a few steps while staring at the dark sky, inside I promise myself to do everything to save Jessy's life.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6E5mkm3zt1
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    Since Jessy stubbornly refuses to tell me about his virus, during the days that follow, I go around bookstores looking for medical journals. At that time, when AIDS was terrifying the population, I had hoped to learn more, unfortunately the articles were still rare and the possible treatments even more so. Everyone repeats the instructions to follow in order not to be contaminated but none of them informs me about the solutions to overcome this cursed disease.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgSRSFtJ5l
    — What is all this ? My mother asks me when I return home, my arms full of magazines and books.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NXHNJ4TUa
    — I'm finding out about AIDS, I admit, placing my load on the kitchen table.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu3kA9TIRgE
    — Meg, I know you care about Jessy but... Don't waste your life for him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4piCQJ8tdT
    My mother's words felt like a stab to the heart.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAsuDjb7vle
    — That's not what I meant, she continues, realizing my fear.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ039KUVdirQ
    Hand on her forehead, she shakes her head as I grab my books again, determined to put an end to this discussion.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7igUwCYKe
    — Megan, you are 16 years old, you have your whole life ahead of you.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4N5uosmXaQ
    — And not Jessy, right ? ! I get angry.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonpXUqxnhg
    My mother looks down.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WIQt7HST1
    — That's not what I said. I just think you're too young to have all these worries. You should be able to enjoy your teenage years completely carefree.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYRVti0hCl
    — I would have liked it too, Mom, believe me I would have preferred that Jessy wasn’t sick. But he is and if I can help him in any way I will be there for him. I realize there's not much I can do, however, maybe one of these books will talk about a treatment and I can tell Jessy about it.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk9nfgnvzTu
    My mother nods weakly.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMXVqsHZli
    — I just ask you to be careful. Don't get too involved.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdk5TgccYcz
    — It's already too late for that, I emphasize. If it was Dad who was sick, wouldn't you do what you could to help him ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1GXx1XIpJ
    I turn on my heel, ready to leave the room when my mother asks me : 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWIbpTF7qL
    — You love him, don’t you ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuA0iCJyVdS
    I don't answer. I lock my gaze on my mother's, trying to make her understand all the feelings that are inside me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVretVczr0p
    — Please don’t tell Jessy about these books, I ask her before going out.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQcGweCJCKI
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    — Good evening, Megan, Mrs. Sutter calls me from the kitchen when I arrive at their house.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQuCf0bMjmt
    — Good evening.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyAmnMOVYe
    — Jessy hasn’t come home yet.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoT8KjAB5y6
    I look up at his mother with worried eyes. It's 8 p.m., classes ended several hours ago.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMS0CCCMjFm
    — Don’t worry, she reassures me. You know that his doctor advised him to go to the AIDS center, there was a meeting this evening. He had no desire to go, but I think it will do him good to talk to people who are going through the same thing as him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrz3nTKMyI
    — Did he leave there complaining ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7Otpr05Sf
    — You know him well enough to know that he complains a lot, she said, smiling.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnElUzs4z1n
    — When he is with me, he is rather...506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7gIvuSVrh
    Hearing the front door open, I don't finish my sentence.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGGG5FB0JJ
    — Yes, but you are special to him, Elise whispers to me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerzlulG8Aj
    I remain speechless, wondering what she means by that.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDzwEBJ3jK
    — Sorry to be late.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxob0faQXr
    Jessy's face is tense, he seems upset. The evening could be long if he remains in this state of mind.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIe8Netmx00
    — How was it ? His mother immediately questions him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRXADdnyXq
    Jessy glances at me quickly before responding coldly : 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAhbG4Be8n
    — I don't want to talk about it.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwkxwntbmj
    Mrs. Sutter looks at us in turn before announcing that she is going to watch television in her room so that we can watch the screen in the living room. Jessy walks around the bar and goes to help herself to some fruit juice.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0mex64ZqBo
    — You want some ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2dYeGG1aP
    His tone is less cold, but still full of anger that he tries to contain.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55TrEm5iBG
    — Yes, thanks.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZ2JlNqLJQ
     He purses his lips before asking me : 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUkePAXwJJ
    — What movie did you bring this evening ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMozttu0hQ
    The week before, I had brought the filmGhost which caused us both to end up in tears. This time, I chose to take a lighter one, but still with my favorite actor. Proudly, I take the video tape out of my backpack and show it to him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk0xlE8vi7S
    — Dirty Dancing ! 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs3X7dmPSl
    He rolls his eyes, but I sense that he is holding back a smile.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGpBUPfxkKL
    — You and your Patrick Swayze ! I know you think he's the most handsome guy in the world, but your obsession with him is starting to turn into an obsession.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡByEgXpNy0d
     I pretend to look shocked, which makes him laugh.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbR47mIHvN
    — It’s true that he’s hot, but in my ranking of the most handsome guys, he only occupies second place.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr5GPmARIt
    — Oh, my God, he whispers with a hint of despair. Which other actor are you planning to pester me with when you're done making me watch all his films ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmuqyrnuGgQ
    Jessy sighs, making a face. His good mood has returned, which makes me happy. I don't want to ask him about the meeting; If he wants to talk to me about it, he will do it alone. I just want to take his mind off things and see him smile. I get up to turn on the VCR while he puts away the bottle of orange juice.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1boaTTrK9J
    — No others, I promise. For me, the hottest guy isn't an actor.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVOC3m6RQXj
    — Ah good ? Who is it ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN88VjPTTgU
    He comes to join me on the sofa, frowning.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsTJ3rIPYQT
    — He’s someone I see every day.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbPz6jz0ew
    The movie starts and I shut up. Out of the corner of my eye, I see my friend racking his brain to figure out who I'm talking about.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlRJDBPln4
    — Your father ? he asks after a few minutes.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ85O5NdX23
    Without taking my eyes off the screen, I shake my head and smile. It amuses me to see him searching.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJ2MfkhESp
    — Someone from high school ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4OcIui2Pc
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    — Chad ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsONcIyywj
    A hint of anger and disbelief filters into his voice.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2enYhbreSY
    — No. Jessy, do you want to watch the movie or tell me all the names of the guys at school ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡias5LbDTTe
    — Sorry, but no matter how hard I look, I can’t see who…506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplSUnsK9rA
    — It's you.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGC1YLFKCk
    I didn't mean to tell him, it just came out, and now I feel myself blushing as I keep my eyes glued to the television. The words have barely passed my lips before Jessy chokes on swallowing and starts coughing. He gets up to go drink some water.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhookf5Fpk
    — Well, that makes you feel, I said mockingly, pausing the movie.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEpTX7k4Em
    — You got me, he says from the kitchen.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV48saIV9p
    I turn around on the couch to look at him.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NGVKxjeLC
    — It’s the truth, Jessy, I’m not making you walk.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOjomGxN73R
    He comes back to sit next to me on the sofa. His cheeks are red as he places a kiss on my forehead.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpDK8G5MLx
    — It’s nice of you to try to cheer me up. I love you.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6E61k88OaO
    That's not what I'm trying to do, I really mean it, yet my heart immediately races : he adores me. 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfJbKehddf
    — Is it true ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPrrfgdV02
    — Of course. You're my best friend, Meg.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwteYRq97QC
    Oh… Friend ? My heart calms down quickly.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQ2JlnoqC8
    — Aren’t you in good spirits ? Is it because of the meeting ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZc0bLRJV3
    Your mother told me about it, I add in front of his frown.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgn5UA0DU4
    — Yeah… it was depressing. Hearing all these patients talk about their fears… it brought me back to my own.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNODKlhSvGI
    — Did you speak with them ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLj5BWqoTY
    — No, I listened to them. It’s strange to arrive in this center where I don’t know anyone and where they invite me to confide.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KZ0WkadR1
    — If you want, next time, can I accompany you ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqjCSr2OBA
    I suggest, but I already know the answer.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnDaldjI4h
    — Non ! 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1EgofzL9gU
    His tone is harsher than I thought. However, he softens very quickly.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmwIRSTEWs
    — That’s nice, but no. I don't want you to come into this part of my life.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcn3k6U1bfV
    — For what ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡST0ziEHofh
    Anger reappears in his eyes, he lowers his head.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphAbhN5PFr
    — Because you are too important to me for me to drag you into this world of illness with me.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbE6DQBfQw5
    — Jessy… 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PdKmp2WiW
    — No, Meg. I'm willing to give in when you force my hand to leave this house, but when it comes to AIDS, I won't change my mind, he said firmly, turning his gaze back to the television.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz62sEzP1RU
    — OK as you want.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTl8iQI4MA
    I sigh as he resumes playing the movie. After a few minutes of silence, he glances at me and whispers : 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7ybMksiUb
    — Are you mad at me ? 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNA429BRXvh
    I can't help but smile and lean my head on his shoulder like I've gotten used to doing when we watch movies together.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoj1bdY1eQX
    — No, it’s your choice.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw5KLGvs9vi
    He places another kiss on my forehead. I whisper to him without taking my eyes off Patrick Swayze : 506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrwlOLrBYt
    — Me too, I like you.506Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡllb9yQpSUe
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