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「我晚餐要吃什麼?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAil6TVapJ0u
放學後的走廊,一直走在前面的他突然回過身來。接過他遞來的衛生紙,我擦擦綴著餅乾碎屑的嘴角,四下張望,沒看到其他人。87Please respect copyright.PENANAXYihGt307M
「問我?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAhTbtd7FIvc
「不然這裡還有別人嗎?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAQzvZUwa4IW
夕陽的餘暉透著簇簇綠葉散落在廊道間,一點一片地布滿視界。如果不是我剛剛搶了他一包35元的冰淇淋夾心並且手上還握著它悲催的殘骸,這一幕應該會特別像青春校園偶像劇——那種佔比三分鐘不到的,路人跟男主角的對戲。87Please respect copyright.PENANAiMXv35a8Ps
「呃……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAn3vgT4Hgqf
我心虛地看看手裡的犯案證據,再看看倒楣路過的那只有互通過名字的同班同學,有那麼一瞬間想說有。但見他掛著一副「我就看看你要怎麼回答」的自信笑容,視線還若有似無地投向我無措的小手,只得摸摸鼻子把話吞了回去。87Please respect copyright.PENANAOOATYAM15G
「你剛剛…說想吃焗烤吧?那就吃焗烤。」思索片刻,我姑且回憶起他剛剛隨口帶過的話,試圖盡快敷衍過取去。87Please respect copyright.PENANAiNst9d9XKZ
「不要。」但他聞言,卻只是一邊繼續往前走,任性地搖搖頭,轉眼就否認了自己的說詞。「營養師說如果是朝健身的方向努力,就得要用健康的方式胖起來。」87Please respect copyright.PENANA71wqV0By4D
「… 焗烤很不健康嗎?」無言地翻了個白眼,我沒有再往前跟去,而是轉過身,想回去找個垃圾桶清理一下自己的犯行,「而且你明明說他說可以。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAqHrUcmHlq1
「是可以啦,但是……」87Please respect copyright.PENANA6fuNAPmy0T
他停下腳步,靠著欄桿等我,漫無目的地看向身後兩層樓下熱鬧的球場。淺金色的光芒點綴其上,將那號稱「系上第一病弱美男」的蒼白臉龐映得格外精美,鮮明地刻畫出他立體的五官。87Please respect copyright.PENANAYI2IGCK4dE
「『呵呵,你就吃呀。』他是這樣說的欸?」87Please respect copyright.PENANApXAhqBDPEf
「那就是可以。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAFdDwRMZaUh
「也是啦…不過,還是不要好了。」87Please respect copyright.PENANA4JhXkx3Qdd
「好喔。」整理完自己的犯案痕跡,我一身輕盈。喬了下背包的位置後,無視誇張地模仿營養師的他,再次往樓梯而去。87Please respect copyright.PENANA0v1g8SM1XN
「那不然…後門出去不是有那個…你們之前常點的健康便當什麼的,叫什麼盒子……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAI1pmmlaet4
「我剛剛是有想過。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAiCmif7MVOI
他自然地跟上來,又自然地走回領路的位置,彷彿未曾停下腳步。87Please respect copyright.PENANA31kd4gXxO5
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就像一直以來一樣。87Please respect copyright.PENANA8AwOLokei1
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「但這樣還要繞路,」信步而下,他看著階梯,若有所思。「而且節食期結束了,我想吃點不一樣的。一直吃健康餐很膩,沒味道。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAqAP9janV3U
「所以你就把早餐省了,十點多吃了碗小碗的牛肉麵,再慢吞吞地來上課嗎?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAXrkHQAEb5I
「……對。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAjUK7f4nIeg
難得看到他吃癟,我小小得意了一下,大發慈悲地跟著他停下腳步。87Please respect copyright.PENANAJZWrlxVizY
「總之,我想吃點不一樣的。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAh2eeQPtWsE
「什麼不一樣的?什麼晚餐又營養又不營養?」87Please respect copyright.PENANA9JgaHJJIZ0
「我想去看看前面的麥當勞,還可以找個位置準備下個月初的樂理考試。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAZuqQoam9ql
聞言,我不自覺點點頭。這個月已經過了三分之二,想抓緊時間準備倒是合理。87Please respect copyright.PENANAeyp6TnxvyD
不過……87Please respect copyright.PENANANLqbhBuEGl
「麥當勞…很營養嗎?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAqByYZyg5nQ
停在分別的校門,我努力搜索腦海中麥當勞的菜單。雖然我沒去過幾次,但以速食店的平均值來看,能入得了營養師的眼的應該屈指可數。87Please respect copyright.PENANAmJPd8t2jkG
「……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAtgo8Oazsxr
他一下子愣住,似乎並沒有想過這個問題。不知道是下意識地把麥當勞劃分成營養餐食還是單純為了刁難我,我嚴重懷疑是後者。87Please respect copyright.PENANARfFj0rpnBi
「那…那個……」他撇過視線,裝作沒事:「現在去應該已經沒位子了吧,還是再找找好了。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAeOtAZqW9aG
……87Please respect copyright.PENANA9h8hW6HewM
整我是吧?87Please respect copyright.PENANA7ubJaXQ1Rf
「好喔。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAPSmRXYcyJf
還是一樣的回答,我滑著手機,往反方向的小徑而去。聽著他從不遠處傳來的關於晚餐選項的碎念,一邊感受到他消失在路的盡頭。87Please respect copyright.PENANARpT3JhiHDx
……87Please respect copyright.PENANALeAnIbDQ30
「…晚餐…嗎?」87Please respect copyright.PENANAL2Rtyz7xvg
混跡人群,我無神地望向天空。87Please respect copyright.PENANAhqseTnm79T
「……是啊,他也是人,也是要吃飯的……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAwdCD4lG4TF
87Please respect copyright.PENANA8CeUS7j1sP
……87Please respect copyright.PENANANqPncdK5e8
………87Please respect copyright.PENANAMLCg7DUrAf
其實,我很嫉妒他。87Please respect copyright.PENANAHndiQkJmSD
……非常嫉妒。87Please respect copyright.PENANAMg8tKBvtmb
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「……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAlarAl8lGbW
一個稱職的男主角大概就是那樣的吧?87Please respect copyright.PENANAWOpIFVSghZ
那種只要有心,萬事萬物皆會從命的支配力。87Please respect copyright.PENANAfdwxlNuBST
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生了一張足以被不認識他的人定義為高冷病弱系美男的相貌、不管怎麼吃都維持在固定身材的軀體、好相處的人格特質、優秀的學業成績、多元的課外興趣、高效的工作能力、深受師長及前輩們喜愛、優渥美滿的家庭環境……87Please respect copyright.PENANA60oEtEVS4w
不管哪一項,除了沒刀硬虐的青春假痛文學和前期乞丐後期霸總的成長型故事,這些tag打上去,基本上就可以確定是個男主了吧?87Please respect copyright.PENANABN20PkhW9u
以外文舉例,聽說他一直到高二英文都不太起眼。但之後突飛猛進,為了想要去國外留學,一口氣拿下了雅思8.5分的成績。87Please respect copyright.PENANAAyhsCUlv8t
課業外,以鋼琴為例,口口聲聲說著「只是學興趣」,卻轉眼就拿下了好幾座獎項。87Please respect copyright.PENANATldkj646Pb
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「呼……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAYOg02wVlMW
初夏,天已微熱。即使是鄰近6點的夕照,依舊讓人心煩。87Please respect copyright.PENANAianjsRAgtn
「…好羨慕。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAgT1xeA216K
小提琴、鋼琴、寫作、歌唱、跆拳道、柔道……87Please respect copyright.PENANAZI1XE69lma
「…好羨慕……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAZjkBUC3LiA
英文、西班牙文、德文、日文、程式設計、繪畫技巧……87Please respect copyright.PENANAaxxEBFvPlw
「…真的……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAoXM2WtjcEY
師長的厚愛、家人的支持,同學的傾慕……87Please respect copyright.PENANACmDmY8JuzI
「好羨慕…呢……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAp4taqHfw1H
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我停在一棵歪七扭八的樹下,低下頭看著自己的腳尖,心裡突然一陣酸楚湧上。87Please respect copyright.PENANAVHBCxtbuhU
「混帳…混帳東西……」87Please respect copyright.PENANA7WnZKAsijD
我知道的,這世上就是有些人如此美好而強大。光是一個念頭、一句想要,便足以無視大多數人嘔心瀝血的搏命。87Please respect copyright.PENANAQg9wUHwF5c
「可是真的…真的好羨慕……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAMwqzPjtXL1
我也知道,現在的自己不過是在經歷一場沒睡飽的歇斯底里。我見過他為了一份報告熬夜到兩三點,見過他為了考好英文檢定犧牲所有的自由時間,見過他為了寫好一份短文反覆修改數十遍……87Please respect copyright.PENANAtTICm4ANBh
甚至剛剛,他連決定晚餐的因素都必須把樂理考試考量進去。87Please respect copyright.PENANAoHzUUANxCa
「……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAB5Qka2DFkW
我知道的。87Please respect copyright.PENANARHJfXd2xzV
真的。87Please respect copyright.PENANA2rXAoKk2xI
我知道他不是傲慢自負的天之驕子,不是會把別人的辛苦用一句話敷衍掉的人。87Please respect copyright.PENANAfqA7gmUR5P
「…想要……」87Please respect copyright.PENANANuLOidKH8l
但是,那又何妨?87Please respect copyright.PENANARAS3Wz2KB3
「好想要……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAZFynehWCuc
畢竟,我就是這種陰暗的人。87Please respect copyright.PENANAHC3zZEpmwF
「…好想要…我也想…」87Please respect copyright.PENANAJayDPICNWs
我也想要我的付出必定會有回報,想要被人認可,想要笑得那麼自信……87Please respect copyright.PENANABfXQbiVqYN
我也想要,有我的價值。87Please respect copyright.PENANAl6rq3J02Z8
有錯嗎?87Please respect copyright.PENANA3DeyRAtFvO
我做錯什麼了嗎?87Please respect copyright.PENANAMDz3qSEVBm
不是男主角就不可以被認可,被需要,被喜愛嗎?87Please respect copyright.PENANAcDsREjTVRW
就因為我是那種連立繪都沒有,從頭到尾只有剪影,連聲優都要跟無數路人甲乙丙丁共用的配角嗎?87Please respect copyright.PENANAYWKGNkSnsH
是嗎?87Please respect copyright.PENANA8v8LCs1n6e
是這樣嗎?87Please respect copyright.PENANAV5WKEEHFoU
「哈哈…哈哈哈……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAB9D6Vsp6fN
可是,我憑什麼?87Please respect copyright.PENANAv0eOGWdDdm
我憑什麼不能羨慕他?憑什麼不能嫉妒他?87Please respect copyright.PENANACieECK0jm1
87Please respect copyright.PENANA0GRrzqgMHP
『你是個怎樣的人嗎?唔… 善良的人吧?』87Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4wK2EP0Vh
……87Please respect copyright.PENANAPC4XxJ1e0m
『硬要說的話,我覺得你是那種善良的類型。』87Please respect copyright.PENANAA62X8qMdUd
不知道為什麼,腦海裡突然浮現出以前和其他人打發時間時玩過的小遊戲——用一個詞形容你抽到的人。87Please respect copyright.PENANAvt0VSXtlxM
『…我嗎?』87Please respect copyright.PENANAB9Hayvu3Zk
『嗯,你。』87Please respect copyright.PENANAQvBUMIIgN7
他們很理所當然地點著頭,說著不可思議的話。87Please respect copyright.PENANAUfZt8bPrKA
『是說你沒錯,有問題嗎?』87Please respect copyright.PENANAXR2G8tOUr7
……87Please respect copyright.PENANAF6l4899VUh
「破遊戲。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAmdIQ1grx7w
是啊,我是個善良的人。87Please respect copyright.PENANAJVB9OZUZYe
「什麼破遊戲……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAm7kzCfskUl
我是一個會在別人痛苦時為他分擔,別人高興時為他喝采,那種路邊一抓一大把的,「善良」的模型。87Please respect copyright.PENANAFRf273CmcJ
「爛透了…簡直爛透了……」87Please respect copyright.PENANA3lIcuofQrt
他們不知道。87Please respect copyright.PENANACgLdtRprVY
一個善良的人才不會為了自己不如人就鬧脾氣,不會在背後做讓自己消氣的小惡作劇,不會像我這樣,這麼討厭一個對自己好的人。87Please respect copyright.PENANAgmPFctcoqZ
「垃圾。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAqm0VzgGWup
有光的地方就有陰影,而光芒越盛,陰影越暗。87Please respect copyright.PENANA0MGBa2COci
「什麼善良的人…簡直是一坨垃圾……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAbLodBvJBLE
他有他的光,而相處之下,我就顯得越發陰暗。87Please respect copyright.PENANAMNR9TiB6Z2
所以,其實我很討厭他。87Please respect copyright.PENANA4yWkdwAdj4
非常討厭。87Please respect copyright.PENANAILUIZ0gu4q
「……」87Please respect copyright.PENANA2V1bEuwNSJ
他有我沒有的才華、自信、樂觀、勇敢、毅力;我有他沒有的笨拙、卑劣、懦弱、悲觀、懶惰。87Please respect copyright.PENANAKodaOo3Odl
如果映襯法也可以是人生的一環,這大概就是一種互補吧?87Please respect copyright.PENANAr8SkKzZhfh
一種單向的互補。87Please respect copyright.PENANAccuVb3Q81Y
「…煩死了。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAEqI3HEIE2M
大樓前,門邊一個小巧的石頭被我用力一踢,輕飄飄地滾向路肩。87Please respect copyright.PENANAzWh5HGDLyu
沒辦法,我力氣小,踢不動大的。87Please respect copyright.PENANAulFSf4ZWba
「真的…煩死了……唔?」87Please respect copyright.PENANATl85UNLK77
碎念到一半,手機突然傳來簡訊通知。87Please respect copyright.PENANArst1pCyb6d
我沉默地點開,正是那傢伙的訊息。
—他不給我拍87Please respect copyright.PENANARW2PY5hlFS
—(影片)87Please respect copyright.PENANA2ykyL9Hphp
—盡力了
「…… 」87Please respect copyright.PENANAlSkIJo2LWI
等電梯的同時,我點開附檔,赫然是他摸著他家的貓,試圖說服牠舉起前掌但最終失敗的影片。87Please respect copyright.PENANAD7JZJ0HWlN
「啊…對了,手根球。」87Please respect copyright.PENANAn4IvgmrqN0
花了點時間回憶,我這才想起他為什麼這麼做。下午,我偶然發現原來貓的腳掌與我印象中的樣子不盡相同。除了記憶中那幾個可愛而危險的小爪爪外,還有一個名為手根球的部位。於是我便向家有雙貓的他請求,請他有空時幫我拍下貓咪的手根球,讓我長長見識。87Please respect copyright.PENANAviYZqMEKqs
「什麼啊……」87Please respect copyright.PENANAEvvBJA23RD
我不自覺笑起來,一直不知不覺被逐漸模糊的視線也稍微清晰了點。電梯的數字不斷攀升,距離我要去往的地方已不是太遠。87Please respect copyright.PENANAoNSudJKwnK
恍然間,我開始有點捨不得。87Please respect copyright.PENANAnm2XBdTGZc
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—看來你們87Please respect copyright.PENANAvcoMyo1VdM
—關係不好(87Please respect copyright.PENANABrB9l5daDT
—你自己看看後面拍的是什麼87Please respect copyright.PENANAeO8sX9RfEu
我還以為你被他打趴了×87Please respect copyright.PENANActKhsChOfY
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我笑著回覆,傳送出去後又點回影片,反覆播放那隻大胖橘生無可戀的死魚臉。高處的風稍顯涼意,微微驅散了心頭的鬱悶,讓我有勇氣多呼吸一次,多欣賞一下這世界的美好。87Please respect copyright.PENANAfz4epSzFcn
我很討厭他,真的。87Please respect copyright.PENANAqqo7RXiudh
但是……87Please respect copyright.PENANA4Fa2OVkBBB
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—我看了,所以才說他不讓我拍87Please respect copyright.PENANAojhUGMnoHU
—(圖片)87Please respect copyright.PENANAtF4cs4XSN5
—有了87Please respect copyright.PENANApden3Ex7kA
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「噗哈哈哈哈哈……」87Please respect copyright.PENANACAfqi2V4rY
點開圖片,大胖橘驚恐的大臉第一時間映入眼簾,讓人忍不住發出一聲爆笑。87Please respect copyright.PENANAGPVh6OLgAr
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—看得出他一定是心甘情願87Please respect copyright.PENANAogTilmyRly
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我一邊笑,一邊努力防止手機被我笑到墜落樓外。87Please respect copyright.PENANA5lrYW1xzKG
「什麼跟什麼啊……」87Please respect copyright.PENANATsiem2PaLK
笑出來的淚跟方才有些不同,指腹一樣地輕抹,卻不再窒息。87Please respect copyright.PENANAYY0xxrHBrJ
彷彿剛才一瞥而過的,那些不堪入目的文字也變得沒有必要了。87Please respect copyright.PENANATEk73Uim1R
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—欸欸所以87Please respect copyright.PENANAC03SdN1yH0
—你晚餐吃什麼?87Please respect copyright.PENANAMb0YAYyJqb
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我很討厭他,但或許……87Please respect copyright.PENANAy1r6pYU9tW
我只是,覺得自己很討厭他,很討厭光。87Please respect copyright.PENANA5HU8TN3yrh
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—沒吃,還在找87Please respect copyright.PENANADLYrBm1bFB
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又或者……87Please respect copyright.PENANANBsTxWhrLw
「…學!!同學!!!不要站在那邊!快下來!」87Please respect copyright.PENANA1snsj3A3lA
或者我討厭的,其實……87Please respect copyright.PENANAZyrDcLt4Gd
87Please respect copyright.PENANAkN7uT0xmYg
—又在哪裡鬼混?87Please respect copyright.PENANAWDTT7EZLCb
—放學了不回家,怎樣,翅膀硬了是不是?87Please respect copyright.PENANAGIql1rRueH
—你還有沒有把我當你媽了?87Please respect copyright.PENANAuyzJX3DSmX
—真是跟人家說的一樣兒子都是白養87Please respect copyright.PENANAcXndens3ag
—考上好學校有什麼用,不學學你妹87Please respect copyright.PENANAdF74DaH5SM
—整天拉著張臉是做給誰看
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