第一次走上大型舞台的時候，我其實很緊張。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AwLQA40da
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緊張到胃在三十分鐘前就開始絞痛。化妝間的燈亮得刺眼，我盯著鏡子裡的自己，突然覺得那張臉好陌生。明明每天都在練習，可是真的到了這一天，還是會害怕。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLY9W7ynvvX
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我一直在等。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYOmUn6LZ7
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等夢娜姊傳訊息來，等她說一句 :「別怕，我在。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vwf5fUFSN
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她今天來不了。我知道她有重要的考試，那是她努力很久、一直想達成的事情。我真的希望她順利通過。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtteKNRiyF6
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只是……這種時候，妳如果在就好了。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3nFRQi8nXA
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門被推開的時候，我還以為是工作人員。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFWO0gM0dB
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結果是鈴蘭姐姐，她幾乎是跑過來抱住我。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpA0TTn7chb
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「努力把自己有熱情的事情做好，就是最有意義的事！」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGi8wtCNiq
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她說得很篤定，眼睛裡都在發光。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDymIKncgy
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我鼻子有點酸，但我不想哭。因為我希望她看到的，是站在舞台上發光的我，而不是躲在化妝間裡緊張到發抖的樣子。她大概看出我的不安，握緊我的手，輕聲說：「盡情享受舞台上的快樂吧。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiLF5cm9Bo
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那句話不像安慰，更像是在提醒我——我其實是喜歡站在那裡的。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8GZh21Cs0
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她身後站著君嶋執事。那個總是笑得很禮貌，卻很難看出真正情緒的人。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4App7LdAZ
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他對我點了點頭。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhhreeIKGH
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「加油。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpW7mzf6mo
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只有兩個字。卻不知道為什麼，讓我的心跳慢慢安定下來。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOs5gv5juNU
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我爸爸和大伯，是家族裡感情最好的兄弟。大概只有我爸那種隨和到有點沒神經的性格，才受得了大伯那種規矩多到爆、嚴厲到連空氣都要站直的氛圍吧。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KDwaOXZ5h
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每年寒暑假，我們都會去大伯家。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7Wb7CcWqI
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鈴蘭姐姐是獨生女。她看到我們時，總是開心得有點誇張。誇張到我有時候會忍不住想，妳真的有那麼想我們嗎？可是每次她那樣對我笑，我又會覺得……心裡暖暖的。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDqX4O3HtE
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我其實不太懂她。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XkChrHBpR
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為什麼她總是能理解露蕾雅那些幼稚又無厘頭的想法。露蕾雅說想找奇怪形狀的石頭，她就陪著找。說想看草叢裡那隻長得很恐怖的藍舌蜥蜴，她也陪著翻草叢。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvz2kbcdgLh
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有一次，露蕾雅說想試試看用一隻手指頭彈完整首曲子。鈴蘭姐姐竟然真的坐在鋼琴前，陪她研究了一整個下午。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQj7QR30xr
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真的很不可思議，她到底哪來那麼多耐心？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzU51RUSL7S
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換成是我，大概三分鐘就開始煩了。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBz8psGX0S
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而那個名叫君嶋航一的執事，永遠跟在她們後面。像遊戲裡自動跟隨的NPC，陪著主角慢慢完成任務。我有時候會想——完成這些奇怪的任務之後，真的會掉出什麼寶物嗎？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkcvqvR8k0
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還是，那樣的時間本身就是寶物？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oRF9zO23m
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……算了，我才不羨慕那種事。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZiS3qk0hfV
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我大概還是比較適合有目標性的事情。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtKjivwysu
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比如把一首歌唱到真的打動人心，把吉他練到能跟樂團完美配合。露蕾雅鋼琴彈得那麼好，如果她哪天真的想站上舞台，我其實很想跟她一起彈一場。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgLPLqhMGg
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站在燈光底下。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlD49uwOpTe
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被人記住。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhEgmzTebW
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被人需要。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmKt69GSXq
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被人喊著自己名字的瞬間，讓人覺得自己真的活著。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqIEYsFncG
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十二歲那年，我開始大量排演與錄音，寒暑假幾乎不再回大伯家。與其把時間浪費在那些小孩子的遊戲上，我更想把歌詞寫好，把吉他練好。
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夢娜總會誇我。說我努力，說我很棒，說我一定會很受歡迎。
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那樣的誇獎，像止痛藥一樣，讓人短暫忘記疲憊。
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我不像正常的同年紀朋友。不能每天上學，不能按時交功課，不能與大家一起期末考。
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但我是在做更有意義的事，不是嗎？
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前兩天的演唱會，台下的人喊著我的名字，大聲地唱起我的歌。那種聲音，會讓人心臟發燙，全身的血液都沸騰。
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回到學校後，同學圍著我，翻著刊登我消息的雜誌，吱吱喳喳地問東問西，興奮地聊著演唱會的細節。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlPw4pvEqj
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「菲比，妳寫的歌詞好鼓勵我。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrun4Ra2f9
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「菲比，妳才國三，簡直是天才！」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKD7kyvm9Gb
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那一刻，我是真的覺得自己很幸福。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnR1jaPjmx
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直到我被老師叫進辦公室。她用很溫柔、很委婉、卻藏著無奈的語氣說：「菲比，我知道妳很忙。老師也支持妳的夢想，但是期末考至少要通過喔。我請坐妳隔壁的君嶋同學幫妳準備筆記。君嶋同學的成績很好，他一定可以幫助到妳的。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsnPY7LVhp
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「君嶋？」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HghnlOwrd
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我愣住。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcpMbziBRb
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今天才發現，原來君嶋今年跟我同班，還是隔壁桌。沒注意到也不奇怪。開學前兩週，我都在忙著寫新歌、排練、錄音，根本沒時間看清楚教室裡的人。
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那天下午，老師叫他幫我補前兩週的重點。他點頭，坐到我對面，距離抓得剛剛好，不會太近，也不會太遠。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQPqIgSzVS
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君嶋航一，大伯家的執事。但在學校裡卻是學霸，期末考不是全校第一就是第二，體育也很強。照理說應該是現充等級的人物，可朋友都說他高冷到難以親近。這種人居然是鈴蘭姐姐的執事，她每天面對這種人，不會很累嗎？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2Sr5u5gCK
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他翻開筆記本，開始講什麼一元二次、因式分解、拋物線。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsygWDCA9zg
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拜託。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdwZX2hpSB
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這些東西以後真的可以在社會上用得到嗎？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvFexAYixyT
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我一邊聽，一邊在腦海裡排著下週的舞步動線。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmgyVEbO7G
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數字在紙上排隊站好，我腦袋卻已經飛到聚光燈底下。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ784UGuFg2F
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然後我才發現——313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSukyxA2Pr
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欸。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxo8hWiEFau
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君嶋其實長得還不錯欸。鼻子很挺，睫毛也太長了吧？男生長那麼長是合理的嗎？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeM5PA754m
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這張臉不去當偶像或模特兒也太浪費了。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMULfJ3tyBL
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結果我盯著他看太久。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQw1mU9dB3
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「二小姐，妳有在聽嗎？」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZOmDScZLPe
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糟，被抓到了。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZUUoHrNzuU
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「有啊有啊！剛剛不是在講那個……三角形？」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPksIWnwzIR
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他看了我一眼。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRE1lwsYNLG
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……欸？那是什麼表情？該不會是嫌棄吧？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEfA6VwfPi
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喂。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrvHKt3lLN
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「是三角函數。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGwZC7iZkm
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「差不多啦，不都是三角。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZUhB5p5vQ
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我撐著下巴看他寫字。以前只覺得他是鈴蘭姐姐的NPC。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡovXIXi80aG
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現在才發現，他其實跟我一樣大，而且長相什麼的，不比我身邊那些偶像差。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkiirIq6uLv
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……嗯。是挺順眼的。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbA2HCmz0Fz
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只要我有去學校，君嶋幾乎都會在午休的時候幫我複習功課。一開始我其實覺得很煩。午休明明是可以練習唱歌的時間，卻要聽他講什麼畢氏定律——那我還不如去睡覺。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1CTIfZfbTf
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……算了。至少臉是好看的。聽不懂數學，看看臉也不虧。
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可是不知道從什麼時候開始，我開始期待那段時間。開始希望，他的視線能多停留在我身上一秒。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9LjopWYVe
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明明只要我回到學校，幾乎每個男同學都會回頭偷偷看我。走在走廊上會放慢腳步，體育課會有人故意在我面前灌籃。至於鞋櫃裡的情書，更不用說了——幾乎每天都會收到一兩封。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQnopnwKo69
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可是君嶋跟其他男生都不一樣。他只會把筆記翻好，冷靜地說：「這題妳再算一次。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQRMD3kG35
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這不是很奇怪嗎？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qB1VCuxR8
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我故意把頭髮綁得高一點，故意戴上新買的耳環，甚至還在他面前哼了兩句剛發行的新歌。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSet3RMuip
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他卻連頭都沒抬。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeyaN19atYD
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「你有沒有在 YouTube 上聽過我的新歌？」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kZIMGreF7
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我撐著下巴，裝作若無其事地問。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRISYh4cV8y
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他停筆了一秒。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWzLuzpFPo
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「二小姐，請專心。」313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAkp7dgCKP
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什麼嘛。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs5eneeykl9
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至少說一句「很好聽」是會怎樣。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0A9XY938tP
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夢娜說，只要夠努力，就可以達成目標。313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMK7qvjjQw
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那是不是……只要我再努力一點，他就會注意到我呢？313Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hR6QljI3x
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