I. 41Please respect copyright.PENANAwmZaEMzXaT
Desert heat, high clouds, and sky41Please respect copyright.PENANAMqA9CO3bUV
the color of lapis. On this journey,41Please respect copyright.PENANApJ5uySfPpN
anything seems possible,41Please respect copyright.PENANAhxC7GmtbKP
so we stop by an ancient cottonwood41Please respect copyright.PENANA8kf3cbVx1m
to kiss. The beauty trembles,41Please respect copyright.PENANAzbUsu6JG2u
doesn't say a word, just watches41Please respect copyright.PENANAZRdOVHxoFh
me, so open. Small birds fly by, flock41Please respect copyright.PENANAsxEjr8pBq5
in the shady tree above us. What41Please respect copyright.PENANAnB2k4W0OcS
settles in her heart? What congeals?41Please respect copyright.PENANA2Ejfiai1vy
Hope? Despair? Far off, the river churns41Please respect copyright.PENANA6Xu5BOePPe
in its sandy banks, swallows veer, turn41Please respect copyright.PENANADOOGq7VUIB
in fiery air. Will these kisses seal41Please respect copyright.PENANAUS8Vo4g2vC
her to me? I her lover, she my wife?41Please respect copyright.PENANAB8yE7C5sFv
Is all of this a dream, my whole life?
II. 41Please respect copyright.PENANAR5hxXHQ723
She is just this side of wonderful,41Please respect copyright.PENANAan12Qzah1C
and suddenly the glamorous world41Please respect copyright.PENANAZlMUaWMlze
fills itself with shining and we laugh41Please respect copyright.PENANAXTgEuZDw5y
at highway monuments that explain41Please respect copyright.PENANAvXRfp69axg
how hard the trek had been for Franciscans41Please respect copyright.PENANAbp584stpcp
in the Indian wilderness, poor fellows—41Please respect copyright.PENANAezxe39GAWD
conversion is the devil's own41Please respect copyright.PENANAHgL85cBdat
work! Then the stones of her dream41Please respect copyright.PENANA3vFN7x1CY9
turn up under her feet, the back41Please respect copyright.PENANAFS6zAKhODm
of a huge land turtle. I know41Please respect copyright.PENANAt6DUydWwOY
we must be circling Paradise41Please respect copyright.PENANAw6rBYWiKsY
because the ants enter the fleshy petals41Please respect copyright.PENANAmKiPnSv8PU
of the roadside flowers with evident41Please respect copyright.PENANANVlol2PovH
joy and purpose (oh, my dark, pretty one).
III. 41Please respect copyright.PENANA3ehvxzYAG0
Music, my adored. When is there never41Please respect copyright.PENANAep5wanBH26
music? My accordion puffs up41Please respect copyright.PENANAW7am7bs8dm
with drinkable melodies. I spill41Please respect copyright.PENANA96ft94rTYE
her tunes into your listening ear,41Please respect copyright.PENANA6du9MIIVwc
one after the other: the squeeze-box41Please respect copyright.PENANAgVt6vlQMZh
enters the dance of the plaintive gypsy41Please respect copyright.PENANAgOwTPe4Pbv
with its hard rhythms, lilts the back-41Please respect copyright.PENANA8tpsgkZTkc
breaking labor song the worker croons41Please respect copyright.PENANA5o4lIDnu11
to earth, warbles romantic notes of41Please respect copyright.PENANAPg0H09D7JW
dissolving borders. You melt41Please respect copyright.PENANA7d3PARShZN
like a woman beneath her lover's touch.41Please respect copyright.PENANA6iG5cB9843
Music is happy and pitiless when41Please respect copyright.PENANAlkbielEkRq
it sets fire to combustible souls. Even41Please respect copyright.PENANAmYBfDsJDQz
the raspy bandoneon's voice is lyric.
IV. 41Please respect copyright.PENANANpiTKaaihp
Sacred. Sacred. Sacred. Sacred. (Speak41Please respect copyright.PENANAMYmfoVIfrm
in a whisper.) We slip into this41Please respect copyright.PENANAzVOxFxHtdA
space half cognizant. The land is very41Please respect copyright.PENANAMF95odEdqm
large indeed: bones of the earth41Please respect copyright.PENANAG1OWr8crmR
worn down, though she is a living thing.41Please respect copyright.PENANArpi4qCZr7Y
See how she exposes her grace? Antelopes41Please respect copyright.PENANABD7B3rXG6Y
graze on the far plain—their high,41Please respect copyright.PENANAM96JtWkHbJ
white tails—the red soil throbs41Please respect copyright.PENANAkDNYobnZyP
its slow heartbeat, and the blue sky41Please respect copyright.PENANA29QD7jnbXI
clears so smartly, perfectly, like41Please respect copyright.PENANAlOvUCJhrtM
radiance. Are the ancestors near?41Please respect copyright.PENANAdhmb3CaM8E
What can we know? We decide41Please respect copyright.PENANA4U3KmGUFqw
to wander around this prairie, mistaken41Please respect copyright.PENANAzz6xdc9wYy
for Utes, buy commodities in little towns.
V.41Please respect copyright.PENANAVZaMOz045E
Late afternoon we head west along the willow- banked41Please respect copyright.PENANAZM8jKkfm9i
Malheur after the long curve of the Snake River plain. (Above the falls where the Shoshone went to pray41Please respect copyright.PENANAj2qtjvN0kt
we soaked our feet in cold water, and I observed41Please respect copyright.PENANA4vq9XV4Jff
the arch of her brown foot.) Rabbitbrush and sage41Please respect copyright.PENANAvsV3se9P7k
along the highway, juniper on far hills and bluffs.41Please respect copyright.PENANAyVhReQcy4m
Sundown, and dusk falls over the wide basin of land.41Please respect copyright.PENANARWlmbR7X61
In Burns we eat eggs in a cafe, take a room41Please respect copyright.PENANAChtppeiMGP
in the Motel 6. In the dark, I can see41Please respect copyright.PENANAcQXYR4NjEV
her black hair, black against the pillows. Its clean41Please respect copyright.PENANAbJ6ehbyCKN
scent makes me think of corn. At dawn, I hold her41Please respect copyright.PENANA9mbCwel9OF
and there are kisses. Then more kisses. Then more41Please respect copyright.PENANARQS9BwKqbm
The day is cold; a north wind blew last night. But41Please respect copyright.PENANAmSyqp6DWPs
the land is open. Rain falls in showers of light.
VI. 41Please respect copyright.PENANAvEEcf9brjc
Her hand on my thigh, my shoulder,41Please respect copyright.PENANAOSg3b4m0gj
in my hair. She leans over to kiss my cheek.41Please respect copyright.PENANARlUuF9WAVs
We look at each other, smile. For miles41Please respect copyright.PENANAVnPhF0HjNC
we travel this way, nearly silent, point41Please respect copyright.PENANALNdWVqj2JD
with eyes or chins at the circling hawk, the king-41Please respect copyright.PENANAvNwpfqXMQF
fisher on the snag above the swollen41Please respect copyright.PENANAK9h7lzz0Je
creek. One night I weep in her arms41Please respect copyright.PENANAU0jrHR679m
as she cries, "Oh, oh, oh!" because I have touched41Please respect copyright.PENANAaUX9P6KmGz
her scars lightly: throat, belly, breasts.41Please respect copyright.PENANA1k19SgfIB9
In that communion of lovers, thick sobs41Please respect copyright.PENANA0qpuSFdhD8
break from me as I think of my love41Please respect copyright.PENANAnmHMJqJ1RC
back home, all that I have done41Please respect copyright.PENANABSU8Ar0ED3
and cannot say. This is the first time41Please respect copyright.PENANAB7sjhe1bv1
I have left her so completely, so alone.
- Janice Gould
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