我青梅竹馬同咗個死MK仔一齊//《不懂愛的青梅竹馬們》 - 【第八章改變，嗎？】

發阿敏脾氣之後過咗一個星期，我哋毫無交雜。

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傻仔腎同我講，我哋中學請畢業生教中文，叫我試下。於是，我搵咗中學嘅中文老師，因為我係舊生加上DSE中文考得唔差，所以學校好快就請咗我。

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每個星期嘅一、三、五我都會係四點開始教中文，而我每次都要事前準備定教材。

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原來準備教材都唔簡單，又考慮日校老師係教嘅考試技巧，又要準備例子同練習令學生明白。

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教教下又發現今個人嘅學習進度都唔同，每堂都要為個別有心學嘅同學講解多啲。

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有啲學生都識嘅，始終我只係畢業咗一年，有啲學弟妹都識嘅，所以大家上補課班嘅都好比面，乖乖哋咁聽我講書。

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今日我教中六寫作，可能因為佢哋就快考DSE，所以佢哋都好認真咁聽我講書。

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「用首尾呼應就係咁簡單，你哋可以試下2014年嘅記事文，代入我同你哋講嘅框架到。慢慢寫，唔計時嘅，最緊要明白個概念。」我係黑板前講。

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我教緊中六寫作，佢哋聽完就似懂非懂咁開始揮動原子筆寫作。

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為免騷擾佢哋寫嘢，我就坐埋一邊改下中四、五嘅文。

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「師ching，我唔明呀，過嚟教我！」有把女聲向我求救。

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Ching咪代表師兄，加多個師係咩料？

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我望向聲音嘅來源，係一個mk妹。

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我記得佢叫做蝦滑，唔知點解佢要用食物做佢知名。或者mk妹都好鐘意用打邊爐嘅食物做花名。

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蝦滑真係mk妹，爛爛地口又直腸直肚，身材高挑又有啲波路，啡色長髮但唔知佢有冇連續食兩枝煙？佢一身古銅嘅膚色為佢添加一份惡棍嘅感覺，有啲生人勿近嘅感覺。

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我行去蝦滑嗰邊，問：「咩事？」

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佢問咗我一啲插敍嘅用法，我教咗佢之後佢又繼續寫文。

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過咗一個鐘多啲，啲學生陸陸續續交文俾我然後放學，唯獨蝦滑仲係到奮勇戰鬥。

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雖然我想快啲返hall休息，但佢未走我又唔可以走，唯有冀望可以日落前收工。

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「靚妹你仲要搞幾耐？洗唔洗幫手？」我問。

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「我叫蝦滑呀！同埋我只係細你一年，唔好叫我靚妹呀！」蝦滑大聲反駁。

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「咁你依家係卡咗係邊？」我無視佢嘅反抗，我想快啲知道佢唔明啲乜嘢去幫佢解決等我可以走人。

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「我唔知！」蝦滑理直氣壯咁講。

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唔知佢係無恥定係勇氣可加，佢竟然可以咁直接講心底話，都算係一個奇才。

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我拎起佢篇文，圈咗幾個錯字、句子唔通順嘅地方，再講：「文章結構幾好嘅，我頭先講嘅嘢你都做到。錯字同文法要慢慢學，但我睇唔到你有咩大問題。」

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其實仲有好多問題，但拎個4應該都可以，所以我都唔講曬所有問題佢知道。

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我諗呢啲mk妹都唔會諗住自己可以考到個好成績。

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「但係我硬係覺得有啲嘢唔係咁舒暢！」

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雖然佢唔可以明確指出篇文有咩問題，但係佢能夠大概感覺到有啲問題。

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「邊個位令你特別唔舒暢？」我引導佢去搵問題所在。

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「我覺得我寫感情變化唔係咁好，啲感情好似變得太快。」

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「呢個係問題之一。你可以係每段最後加少少鋪排，睇下主角嘅感情點樣變。咁去到尾二個段係主角嘅領悟或者係題目想要你表達嘅中心思想。咁樣個轉折就唔會太突兀，係文章嘅脈絡上又有啲鋪陳咁。」我解釋。

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「係喎！成篇文七段左右，每段最後講少少就可以顯示到思想嘅轉變。」蝦滑好似發現新大陸咁。

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「咁你走未？」

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「俾多五分鐘，寫埋我就走。」

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好快蝦滑就寫完交咗篇文俾我，收到文嘅我就啦啦聲走人。

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跟住嗰兩個禮拜，蝦滑每堂都留到最後，問好鬼多問題，不過全部都關DSE事。

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第三個禮拜呢堂，又係其他人走曬淨返我同蝦滑係班房。

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忽然有個男同學入咗班房之後敲門。

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「同學，咩事？」個男同學留陰，死mk一個，我淨係睇到佢冇俾頭髮遮住嘅一隻眼。

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多口講句，佢唔係我一年後遇到嘅比比鳥頭mk仔。

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「唔關你事。」個死mk仔好無禮貌咁講。

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Mk仔行到去蝦滑前面：「蝦滑，做咩唔應我whatsapp？」

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「因為我講咗分手？」蝦滑有啲困惑咁答。

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原來係感情問題。

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個mk又叻仔，夠膽係第三者面前講呢啲嘢。

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蝦滑好直接咁講，佢嘅直腸直肚令我覺得佢好串。

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「好地地做乜要分手！」mk仔怒吼一聲。

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我呢個花生友粒聲都唔出咁睇戲，反正呢個時刻我都唔可以走出去課室外。

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「因為我唔鐘意你。」mk妹有mk妹嘅風格，講嘢直接又串過馬撚。

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「我唔信，你係咪有第二個？」mk仔質問。

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「你無撚嘢呀？咪話撚咗我對你冇feel，咪撚屈鳩我有第二個呀！」蝦滑都爆seed。

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「呯！」蝦滑一嘢反檯，嚇到個mk仔退後幾步。唔止個mk仔，我都嚇咗一嚇，估唔到依家啲後生咁兇狠。

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「無⋯⋯無第二條仔你會咁惡！」mk仔口窒窒咁講完。

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「我話撚咗無！」蝦滑講完就一腳踢落個mk仔到。

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Mk仔立刻向後跌落地。

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「我係唔撚鐘意你，冇feel呀！好地地分手唔撚得嘅，你屈鳩我出軌會好過啲咩！」蝦滑講完再踢鳩mk仔一腳。

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「嘩⋯⋯」坐係老師檯嘅我都忍唔住驚嘆出聲，當代mk妹咁撚瘋癲。

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反正我唔係管紀律，佢哋打成點我都唔會理。

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不過見到一個男人俾個mk妹打到無還手之力，我諗大家都會好驚訝。

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呢條女癲架，我以後都係唔好得罪佢。

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個mk仔起返身：「你係咪真係唔鐘意我？」

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「係，百份之一百。一齊嘅時候就已經唔係太鐘意你。」蝦滑火上加油，都唔知話佢直率定講嘢唔經大腦好。

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Mk仔開始有啲淚水流出嚟，佢跪咗落地再講：「真係唔可以同返我一齊？」

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個mk仔毫無尊嚴咁求個蝦滑，睇嚟佢真係好想復合。

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拍拖姐，洗唔洗搞到自己咁低賤？

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「唔撚一齊呀。唔鐘意就唔鐘意，分手就分手，灑脫啲得唔得呀？」蝦滑好狠咁講。

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「wu⋯⋯」個mk仔跪咗係地下喊。

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「咪撚演你啲內心戲。你喊撚飽佢，我唔會show你。警告你咪撚再煩我！」蝦滑揪起mk仔衫領講。

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「我唔得⋯⋯」mk仔喊曬口，柒到傻。

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蝦滑一把煎落去mk仔塊臉：「講得呀！」

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「得⋯⋯得⋯⋯」個mk仔好唔情願咁講，另外佢左邊面仲有個紅色嘅掌印。

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「師ching，一齊走？」蝦滑問。

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條女咁瘋癲，我廢事得罪佢：「無所謂。」

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我講完就同蝦滑一齊行去地鐵站。

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「你有冇女朋友？」蝦滑問。

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「有。」mk妹真係好八掛。

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「你鐘意佢？」

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「關你咩事？」

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「問下都唔得？」呢條女有啲惡，我俾佢嚇到個心離一離。

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「得。鐘意。」大話。

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「你哋拍咗幾耐拖？」

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「兩、三年左右。」

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「咁都幾好。」

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問撚完未。

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「做乜咁八掛？」

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「都係問下姐。」

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「你都幾有勇氣。」我讚佢。

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「你指咩事先？打鳩佢？」

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「打佢其一啦。你可以咁直接係條友面前話唔鐘意佢，成件事都瘋了。」

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我就唔能夠對小璇坦白，我同唔到佢講我對佢已經無feel。

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「對一個人老實係最基本嘅尊重，就算我唔可以同佢做情侶，我都唔可以呃佢。就算我呃佢話鐘意佢，一段有欺瞞嘅關係唔會健康。同埋，做人於忠於自己，唔鐘意就係唔鐘意，無必要呃自己。我最撚憎啲人虛偽，做個真小人好過做偽君子。」蝦滑講自己嘅世界觀。

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聽完蝦滑嘅說話，我就好似俾佢打咗一巴咁。

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一段有欺瞞嘅關係唔會健康。

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我無同過小璇講阿敏嘅存在，亦都無同小璇講過我對阿敏嘅心意。

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同我一齊嘅小璇就係我嘅後備，我同唔到阿敏一齊嘅後備。

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我對小璇嘅尊重其實無，因為我係一個騙子。

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「都啱嘅。你係暴力咗啲。」我講。

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「我唔想扭扭擰擰，做人直接啲好。我相信唔坦誠面對自己內心嘅話，傷害到嘅唔止會係自己。如果你係重視對方嘅就更加唔應該呃佢，唔誠實嘅關係就只有傷害。」蝦滑咁講又好似佢有為個mk仔著想。

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「都啱嘅。」我和應。

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「同埋，同一個已經無feel嘅人一齊真係好辛苦自己。辛苦自己又辛苦人，何必？」蝦滑講。

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同蝦滑分別之後我又諗起佢，唔係因為異性，而係佢處理感情嘅手法。

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佢打鳩mk仔嘅畫面同說話變咗對我嘅震撼教育。

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經歷完呢啲咁癡線同精彩嘅畫面，我忍唔住去思考、去回帶頭先發生嘅一切。

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如果唔係有呢啲武打場面我諗我都唔會去咀嚼蝦滑講嘅嘢。

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蝦滑份人好直，有嗰句講嗰句，好聽啲叫真性情，唔好聽叫唔理人感受。

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但係最少佢唔會呃人，唔會呃自己嘅感受。

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因為尊重。

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同唔愛嘅人一齊，辛苦自己又辛苦人。

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我一直都做緊呢樣吃力不討好嘅事，為嘅只係一時嘅快感，疑似愛情嘅快感。結果，每日同小璇一齊嘅日子我都係傷害緊佢。

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其實我只係愛自己，咁樣嘅我能唔能夠坦誠去面對呢段關係？

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我做唔到蝦滑咁直率，好似傻仔腎咁講，我係一個仆街。

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我一直都傷害緊兩個女人。

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小璇，我唔能夠全心愛佢。

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阿敏，我一直都直接、間接咁利用佢嘅愛意。

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我、小璇、阿敏，我同呢兩個女仔嘅關係好唔健康。

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我對小璇唔老實。

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我對阿敏能夠坦誠相對，但又拖拖拉拉。

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其實我要對小璇坦白，我嘅變心、我同阿敏嘅事，就算呢啲會傷害到佢我都要講。

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因為尊重同唔好再擴大傷口。

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我知道我一直唔講嘅原因唔係為佢著想而係我為自己著想。

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我為咗保護自己而累積咗好多謊言，我知道要誠實，但一諗到誠實嘅傷害我就一步都唔肯行。

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老實講，收埋咁多謊言我都好累，或者我係時候唔再保護自己。

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或者差唔多係時候要改變一下我同小璇呢段充滿欺瞞嘅關係。

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返到hall，我同傻仔腎講蝦滑單嘢。

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「下次拍片俾我睇呀嘛！」傻仔腎講。

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「我嚇到唔記得呀！」我老實講。

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「不過講真，個mk妹又幾直接同坦白，好過你個仆街仔扭扭擰擰。好心你學下人。」

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「我係咪要同小璇坦白？」我問。

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「你唔想再做仆街咪一五一十講曬出嚟，就算大家都受傷，你最少坦白咗。」傻仔腎講。

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「點樣搞返點？」我問。

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「你同佢講你鐘意咗另一條女囉，之後就順利分手。」

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「咁癲？」

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「你諗清楚先落決定啦。」唔記得講，傻仔腎都知道阿敏就快要去exchange，我身邊可以有阿敏嘅時間越嚟越少，而我係呢個時候同佢嘈大交。

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「好想講撚曬俾小璇知然後等佢做決定。」

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「仲係咁不負責任。唔通佢話可以繼續一齊你就同佢繼續一齊？」

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「或者要有一個二選一嘅情況，我先可以做一個真正嘅決擇。」我講。

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「其實一直都要二選一。你不如認真分手啦。」傻仔腎唔傻。

「都要分手架啦。」我知道同小璇已經無愛。

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「唉，我幫你準備定大概要同小璇講啲乜，有啲乜又唔可以講。等你準備好嘅時候就同佢坦白啦。」

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傻仔腎之後真係幫我準備咗講稿，佢真係好兄弟嚟。

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又過咗個禮拜，中學老師叫我俾啲關於Jupas意見嘅中六班嘅同學。

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每個人嘅預計成績我都睇咗一睇，所以我每個人都俾咗意見，例如揀咩科比較好。

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去到蝦滑，呢個有啲棘手。

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佢想讀醫科。

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但係佢嘅成績好一般，連入大學都有啲勉強。

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因為呢條女係癡線嘅，我怕太直接同佢講嘅話會俾佢打到仆街。

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不過，收咗錢就要做嘢。

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「聽講你想做Kong U喎。」我講。

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「唔好兜圈，入正題。」蝦滑要我直入正題。

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我俾佢嚇窒咗一秒，我講：「你依家呢個成績有啲難入港喎，有冇諗過改一改A1到A3嘅科呀？揀下非三大你都有機會入到喎。」

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「唔改。入唔到港大就算。」蝦滑好決絕。

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「你改下佢都有可能入到大學喎。」

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蝦滑A1到A3都係港大，但以佢嘅成績真係無乜機會考到入去。HKU Space就可能得。

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「對港大以外嘅大學未有興趣。」蝦滑都好決絕。

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雖然佢依家唔改，DSE出咗成績之後佢都可以再改Jupas嘅排序，可能佢到時會有新嘅諗法，但係依家我又好奇點解佢要咁執住考入港大。

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「點解你咁想入港大？」我問。

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「你都覺得我做唔到？」蝦滑反問。

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「有啲困難。老實講，入u都有啲掹車邊。」我老實講。

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「唔緊要。入港大係我嘅夢想，我咁樣排Jupas係希望可以迫到自己發力，唔想有後路俾自己。」蝦滑講。

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「但改下嘅話，起碼會有機會俾到大學。入唔到大學嘅話，可能要浪費時間考過，又或者要入asso架啦。」我講。

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「咁個後果都係我自己承擔。其實我知道個後果同埋我願意去承擔個後果，咁樣唔係已經足夠啦咩？咁樣已經係對自己有所交代，落決定同負責任嘅都係我，我唔會後悔，所以你唔洗再勸我。」

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面對蝦滑呢個我唔太理解嘅堅持，我束手無策。

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諗深一層，呢個mk妹比我成熟。佢識得為為自己嘅決定負責，而且煞是堅定。

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我呢個學長反而成日三心兩意，做完決定又唔想負責任，我好似又俾呢條女打咗一巴。

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「你真係唔介意等多一年？」我問。

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「我知道無人睇好我會入到港大，老老豆豆，我自己都覺得好難。但係就算俾人謾罵同恥笑我都會堅持，因為呢個係我嘅夢想。為夢想嘅犧牲，我願意自行承擔個後果，就算要重讀，就算要入asso，我都想入港大。」蝦滑滔滔不絕。

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「就算你之後會因為呢個抉擇而痛苦？」混入咗其他嘢，唔再單純係為咗蝦滑而問。

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一個學長向學妹學嘢。

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佢感情上嘅誠實，為決定承擔嘅勇氣，兩樣我都無。

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「就算會痛苦，我都會堅持。就好似你嚟教書你都要負責任準備教材，教得唔好會俾人炒。我考得唔好嘅話，就只會係我自己用多啲時間去實現我嘅夢想。」

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佢又幾有道理。

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「你都幾成熟，明明成個mk妹咁。」我講。

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「外表同內在唔同嘅，我當你係讚我嘅，多謝。」

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見識到蝦滑嘅堅定同承擔，好似睇到自己嘅缺點。

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「你都幾犀利。」我敬佩咁講。

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「你講邊方面先？」

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「可以誠實面對內心，鐘意就鐘意，唔鐘意就唔鐘意，唔會拖拖拉拉。」我講。

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「如果你係講上次我同個ex分手嘅話，我就都係嗰句，老實面對自己內心可以拎自己唔洗辜負人咁多。如果你講揀科嘅，唔鐘意嘅話仲揀嚟把撚咩。」蝦滑講。

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同佢嘅相遇明明只係好短，我哋發生嘅事都好微少，甚至好難想像有人會因為呢啲咁少嘅事而受到影響而想去改變自己。

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或者我本來心入面都覺得差唔多要解決我嘅感情問題，而咁啱俾我遇上蝦滑嘅問題。

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兩者一拍即合，令我將兩者自動重合並迫使我認真地反思，再將反思化為行動。

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人就係咁，無人會估到一啲咁細微嘅事會牽動到自己咁多，好多嘢都預計唔到。

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我決定要係兩個女生中真正地揀好一個。

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用『真正地』係因為小璇而家係我女朋友，但係我唔係全心全意鐘意佢，正確啲嚟講係我愛唔上佢。

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因為我當年不負責任咁「食咗再算」就同小璇一齊，結果之後偷偷地食埋阿敏。

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同阿敏斷聯後一年我又好熱切同佢重修舊好，之後我哋又發現大家都仲鐘意對方。

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廿幾歲人，真係要成熟啲。

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一個mk妹都可以為自己嘅行動咁有承擔嘅時候，我作為一個男人真係唔可以再扭扭擰擰。

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我要同小璇講分手，淡咗、無感覺就分手啦。

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但要確補阿敏會同我一齊我先會同小璇分手，好賤但係都要以自己為先。

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要諗下幾時講，同埋點樣講，好彩傻仔腎有幫我寫到稿。

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另外，講之前氹返阿敏又好唔好？

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阿敏要走啦，我要係佢走前氹返佢。

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於是呢個星期六我返咗屋企，去對面，㩒鐘。

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揀星期六係因為我知阿敏今日會係屋企。

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阿敏家門打開。

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「咩事？」門內嘅阿敏講。

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「之前發你脾氣好對唔住。可唔可以原諒我？」我問。

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「唔原諒。」

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「對唔住，係我錯。」我再道歉。

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「多啲？」阿敏已經原諒咗我，我知佢依家只係想我氹氹佢。

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「係我衝動所以傷害到你，依家請你落去食糖水啦。」我講。

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「再多啲。」

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「你想要啲咩呀？」我問。

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「你點解要問我呀！明明你係嚟氹我，一啲心思都無！」

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「帶你去玩點睇呀？」

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「去邊到玩先？」

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「迪士尼？我請。」我同小璇不時去迪士尼，小璇送咗將全年飛俾我，請佢去嘅話買一張飛就夠，慳錢又慳力。

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「你有鬼錢請我呀！」

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「有！呢排都有返工，有多幾個錢。」補習真係好好搵，工時短加工資高。

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「幾時去？」阿敏俾迪士尼吸引到啦。

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「星期二去？」聽日係星期日，唔想去迫人。閒日去小啲人，加上星期二我同阿敏都day off。

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阿敏伸隻手出嚟講：「俾定現金嚟先，廢事你走數。」

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「唉。」我嘆口氣，再拎個銀包出嚟課金。

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啲女人真係好蠱惑，但無計，要氹佢嘅係我。

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雙手奉上紙幣，阿敏袋好啲錢之後就叫我出去一齊買餸，佢話今晚要煮飯。

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星期一，為咗一齊出發去迪士尼我哋無返hall，我同阿敏係屋企出發再坐地鐵出去。

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迪士尼，入場。

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阿敏就好似小朋友咁見到每樣嘢都好興奮。

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佢見到啲著公仔衫嘅職員就話要去影相。

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「曾志偉呀！我要同佢影相！」阿敏見到米奇老鼠就跳跳下咁話要合照。

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今日要聽曬佢話嘅我立刻準備好用佢部手機幫佢影相。

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佢睇我影完嘅相，檢查咗幾次，滿意，無鬧我。

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幫女影相呢樣嘢，我經過小璇訓練之後已經好順手，所以我都幾有信心影得好。

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之後我哋入去一啲鋪頭到睇下唔同商品，佢戴上米奇老鼠嘅耳飾係頭頂，而我就笠咗個蜘蛛俠頭套，我哋又影咗幾張合照。

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我哋經過條大街行到去城堡前面嘅時候，阿敏又話要影相。

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「你去搵人幫我哋合照！」面對阿敏嘅命令我只有服從，於是我搵咗對情侶幫我哋合照。

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我將阿敏嘅電話交俾情侶，然後我同阿敏肩並肩企。

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用手機影相無聲，所以我唔知佢哋影咗相未。

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就係我等待嘅時候，阿敏牽起我手。

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對情侶還返部電話俾我哋嘅時候我無睇到啲相，所以我唔知道電話相簿入面有冇我哋拖手嘅相。

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我無特登去睇相，因為之後我哋都一直拖住手。

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「阿敏？」我叫佢個名。

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「唔好問，我哋就咁樣一日。」阿敏用力拖實我隻手。

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我無問點解佢要拖住我隻手，明明咁抗拒同一齊，但依家又咁輕描淡寫咁拖住我隻手。

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唔好去問，唔好去深究。

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問咗就可能會失去，唔好考慮其他嘢，享受當下就好。

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我同佢只係得返一個月。

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咁正常人去迪士尼都會玩下機動遊戲，但係我哋無。

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每一次問阿敏玩唔玩機動遊戲，佢都話唔想玩。

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去到旋轉木馬前面，我哋又搵咗對情侶幫我哋影相。

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阿敏係人哋準備緊嘅時候抱住我，我都攬返住佢，我哋就好似真係一對情侶咁相擁。

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幫我哋影相對情侶俾返部手機我哋嘅時候有啲尷尬，因為阿敏唔肯放手，仲埋頭係我胸口前唔肯離開。

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我哋之後淨係拖住手係迪士尼周圍行同埋影相，一個機動遊戲都唔玩好似有啲浪費。

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所以我問：「玩唔玩咖啡杯？」

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「你好想鬆手咩？」

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「想同你玩下啲機動遊戲姐，難得嚟到。」

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「嚟到呢到影下相已經好足夠。」

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「咁不如去睇下4D劇場？」我問。

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「都好呀。」我拉住阿敏入咗去一個類似戲院嘅地方，入去之前我哋就戴上咗睇4D嘅專用眼鏡。

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搵個位坐底，我哋靜靜咁拖住手睇戲。

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平淡。

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無刺激嘅機動遊戲，但係都好有趣，又玩得好舒服。

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唔需要擔心女方有冇玩得盡興，因為我知道佢就咁行行企企加影下相已經好開心。

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無玩太多嘢，一般人或者會覺得好可惜，俾咁多錢入去迪士尼但就無玩盡佢，但係我哋兩個嘅話，唔需要啲刺激嘢，平平凡凡咁fing下就已經好滿足。

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呢樣算係我哋兩個獨有嘅腳步。

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我哋拖住手走勻成個迪士尼，就好似我哋真係情侶咁。

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但係我哋唔係。

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「多謝你，呢次係我第一次嚟迪士尼。可以同你一齊嚟真係太好啦。」阿敏發自內心嘅微笑令我都會心微笑。

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「氹返你姐！同埋你都就嚟要走。」

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「我會返嚟架。」阿敏篤一篤我條腰，再攬住我。

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阿敏今日好主動，但我怕佢只係為咗珍惜最後嘅時光而咁做。

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因為如果係咁嘅話，根本就乜嘢都無變過。

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不過，我都攬返住阿敏。

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係迪士尼城堡下我哋相擁，對望。

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個世界好似慢慢失焦，背景化成一個又一個波點，而我哋就成為咗世界嘅中心。

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我哋都係對方嘅眼珠見到自己，亦都見到對方同只有對方。

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就係煙花聲同人嘅喧鬧聲爆發都最激昂嘅一刻時，我哋將世界拋棄，係一個只有我哋嘅世界入面擁吻。

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心跳加速，單純嘅心動。

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長吻過後世界慢慢恢復原狀，消失咗嘅人都突然出返曬嚟，但係我哋仲凝視住對方。

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我再將阿敏拉入懷內抱緊。

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呢個先係我鐘意嘅女仔，另一個我可以放棄。

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「重差啲嘢。」阿敏輕輕咁推開我，再故弄玄虛咁講。

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「我會同小璇分手。」我下定咗決心。

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「你自己諗清楚。」阿敏之後都無繼續拖住行返屋企，但都好舒服。

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我有女朋友。

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我有女朋友，但係拖住另一條女行迪士尼。

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但係我已經對女朋友無感覺，培養咗咁耐都係無感覺，就證明我哋真係唔適合一齊。

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係時候分手啦。

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香港真係好細，偷食一定俾人知。

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我拖住阿敏行迪士尼嘅相，由小璇嘅朋友影低咗再send咗俾佢。

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翌日，教完書去緊將軍澳地鐵站想坐車返hall嘅時候，小璇打咗電話俾我。

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小璇：「係邊？」

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我：「將軍澳地鐵站。」

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「有啲嘢問你。唔好上車，過去海傍，Donki對面嘅長凳等，15分鐘後到。」小璇好冷淡咁一口氣交代好多嘢。

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佢心情聽落好曳，我未答佢，佢就cut咗我線。

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問唔到詳情嘅我唯有去小璇提出嘅地方，面對面問個究竟。

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我未行到去避雨亭嘅長凳，見到我行緊過去嘅小璇就急步行去我嘅方向。

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「做⋯⋯」我未問完，小璇就打斷我。

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「你琴日係咪同第二條女去迪士尼？」小璇充滿住怒氣咁問。

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仆街啦，佢知道咗啦。

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腦袋係呢一刻瘋狂加速，到底呢個炸彈，點拆好？

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搞唔掂，諗唔到點樣可以化腐朽為神奇。

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斷正無得兜。

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或者唔洗拆？

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我都忍夠收埋咁多嘢，其實好累。

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又要呃住小璇，又要欺騙自己，又要同阿敏拖拖拉拉。

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反正我已經無咁鐘意小璇，就算佢因為呢段感情而受傷，我都唔會太過於心有愧，吧？

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又或者，要好似傻仔腎咁講，要負責任、要對做過嘅事有所承擔。

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反正我都對小璇無感覺，就算佢傷心同憎我都好，其實我都唔會有咩傷害。

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如果佢要唱我係賤男嘅我都唯有自己承受返呢個惡果。

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我肉體同心靈都出過軌，重遇阿敏後我又立刻精神出軌。

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當時，我有冇諗過背叛會傷害到小璇？

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追本溯源，由小璇感受到我唔太鐘意佢嗰一刻開始，傷害已經存在。

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依家只係雪上加霜。

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我呃自己，呃咗好多年話自己唔鐘意阿敏，但係呢幾年嘅感受話我知，我已經愛上咗呢個女仔，即使佢拒絕過我，我呢份感情都仲係到。

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我呃自己，我話同小璇拍拖就會慢慢愛上佢，但係無。我同佢更多嘅係新鮮感同刺激，慢慢仲變埋習慣，有冇愛過我真係唔肯定。

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但係新鮮感同刺激感已經無曬，我都諗過幾次不如分手，只係因為未追到阿敏而唔散。

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蝦滑話我知，人要對感情坦誠，即使對方會因此而遍體鱗傷（非物理），我哋都要老實面對自己嘅感情。至於後果，我要自己去承擔，無論幾痛苦，我都要為自己做嘅事負責。最少都要同對方講清講楚。

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好累，好仆街。

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好好咁斬纜，唔好再對小璇添加傷害。

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「分手好唔好？」我講。

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小璇聽完後眼泛淚光，佢捉住我隻手：「我唔係要追究你出軌，只要你識返屋企就可以。」

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我無即刻應到佢，小璇又開始講：「你知唔知我鐘意你嘅契機係啲咩？」

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「依家講，重要咩？」我反問。

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「依家係我做錯事？」小璇有啲兇狠咁答。

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「唔係。」

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「咁你聽我講。中學嘅時候，我係因為你先加入足球隊做打雜。係我加入足球隊之前，我父母嘈緊離婚、我係學校又俾女仔嘅圈子排濟，一個中二嘅女仔根本承受唔到咁多壓力。」

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「咁同我有咩關係？」

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「就係我最痛苦嘅時候你出現咗。我哋每一個group project都一組，慢慢我就多咗好多機會去了解同認識你。我哋第一次一組做project嘅時候，我哋約好咗係班房傾嘢，結果遲到嘅你一入到嚟就見到我係班房到喊？」

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「記得。之後我俾咗粒糖你。」

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「嗰粒糖俾咗我好大鼓勵。你嗰陣仲同我講，你話我無論幾痛苦都好，只要人衷心希望，就一定會有人係你身邊幫你。明明當時都唔係太熟，但係你就同我講只要有需要，你都會全力幫我。」

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我都唔記得我講過啲咁中二病嘅嘢。

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「對唔住。」我唔知講咩好。

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「唔係，同埋我未講完。之後你仲拉咗我去學校天台睇日落，見到夕陽嘅時候，我好似諗通咗好多、暢快咗好多。係一個女仔最痛苦、最需要他人幫手嘅時候，對嗰陣時嘅我嚟講，你就好似黑暗中嘅一盞燈，將我嘅世界照亮。自此之後，我就一齊都好留意你同好想接近你，或者話我好想去了解你，所以我就去咗足球隊幫手。」

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「就只係一粒糖同一番說話，你就鐘意咗一個人？」

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「當時有嘅只係好感。但係，隨著時間過去，我哋相處嘅時間愈嚟愈多，對朋友嘅義不容辭，對需要嘅人唔會憐惜去伸出援手，唔怕蝕低去幫人，呢啲種種嘅特質令我慢慢鐘意咗你。」

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「咁樣唔係接受到我出軌嘅原因。」我打斷小璇嘅回憶，我只係想解決同佢嘅關係一過去係點，我無興趣知。

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「我想表達嘅係，同你拍拖之後，我唔覺得自己可以同其他人一齊。我覺得你就係最特別嘅一個，無論如何我都唔想離開你。你對嘅存在、你對我嘅救贖唔會有第二個人俾到我。所以一時嘅過錯就由佢。

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救贖？佢玩到咁撚大，係哋準備情緒勒索？

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「我唔明白。」我真係唔明點解咁樣都會鐘意到接受到出軌。

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「唔緊要，我只係想講只要你最後揀我，我就可以。」小璇紅住眼、忍住淚水講。

「咁點解你要提起出軌呢件事？你係接受到嘅點解要講出嚟？」我問。

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點解我要問？

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點解唔可以乖乖地收皮？

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女朋友連出軌都接受到，有咩唔好？

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小璇無叫我解釋，無問點解，佢乜都無問。

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佢只係想我留返係佢身邊。

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我回唔回應到佢嘅死心塌地？

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「應承我，唔好有下一次就得。」

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小璇點解要忍到呢個地步？一個女仔點解可以承受咁多委屈？

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阿敏都就嚟走，咁佢走咗，小璇就係我最就手嘅選擇，咁仲分唔分手？

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明明已經下定過決心。

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又扭擰。

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今次我真係唔想再拖啦，就一次徹底咁傷害小璇，然後終結啦。

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「我已經唔鐘意你。同出軌無關係，係我唔鐘意你。」我講。

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雖然做錯事心虛嘅應該係我，但係我意圖反客為主。

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唔洗同佢解釋咁多，一句已經夠。

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阿敏係我邊個，我同阿敏嘅關係係點樣，一句都唔洗解釋，無必要。

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我無直視小璇，但係我聽到佢係到抽泣：「⋯⋯我⋯⋯我有咩唔好⋯⋯唔好走啦⋯⋯我真係唔介意⋯⋯留係我身邊就可以⋯⋯」

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唔洗解釋，拖落去只會動搖到我嘅決心。

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拖到去嘅話小璇就會開始求我，然後我就會心軟，之後繼續同佢一齊。

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然後，一切又會重覆。

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While loop with no break。

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呢一刻係打破呢個輪迴嘅時機。

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我唔想再一齊啦，無感覺啦，走啦。

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我無回答小璇，我向住佢屋企嘅反方向走。

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小璇坐咗係地下喊。

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呢個唔知點解會咁愛我嘅女仔、呢個主動同我告白、呢個同我交往咗一段時間嘅女仔，我今日同佢講分手。

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我傷得佢好深。

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唔太鐘意佢都同佢一齊。

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一齊嘅時候佢感受唔到愛。

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要愛佢嘅時候我牽起咗另一個女仔嘅手。

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或者我要改名做陳庭佳。

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但係，未來嘅日子我唔洗要欺騙他人、唔洗再呃嚟呃去、唔洗再偷偷摸摸。

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我唔回頭，由得小璇自己係海旁喊。

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唔洗再煩啦。

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我終結咗一段煩心嘅關係，傷害咗一個對我好嘅人。

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無得返轉頭，有啲傷心，我嘅身體好重。

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但心靈就似如釋重負。

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釋放嘅感覺慢慢取代虧欠人嘅自責，或者我一直無愛上到小璇先會咁。

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星期一，分手了。

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我無傷心不得止仲有啲開心。

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睇嚟我真係陳庭佳。

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