White sheets stained red in a hotel bed351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQq1LyOrgzm
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEs3t3HNuhA
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJoLZ45Q8wW
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsx8BC3MoXA
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywkXIYmLCR
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtEpB0eakX
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHEnAvWtvz
Vivid visions invading my rest 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy3jcZMH6Od
I can't sleep because all I see is death351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhB76mP5yB5
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO9TKHj5NdA
Thinking about death at such an early age351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqn84MRyGIv
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0Gd62F9Rw
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzA15AJauxA
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbtPf6ItBP
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNzdtRi3eL
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqlHoDMXFJ
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡio11dXRTPW
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0W3hAtwI7
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxV7bLJaq16
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFIWZyBhxOf
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklJvNsK9Oh
Nobody actually cares until you're dead351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZdnZyiIm5
Until you're another headline in the news351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpZDQ5x9hyB
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqjjHcppBc
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLwd6Iao9m
"I miss you today" 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0GSCvasK0
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkuCVbOu5NV
But they care now, 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcoCMnX47e
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQ3e3Zwp3R
Mixed signals is all they send351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2ljYjK2jT
One day I matter to them 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjsNMGdFS9
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSmTjSdY1EF
A few months ago, I felt like flying 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5UkoqKS8q
A few months ago, I truly felt alive351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgUlDBZKGB
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf2ngN7548
It's hard to explain with words,351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiQ7DMAfQM
How the silence kills 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqyTHE8VJ7l
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNuZtzlThz
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODxMQjjBqz
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRYjKi6oeX
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDTHAoZoPX
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOIKNp0zk2h
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2gZmCFIdn
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbZyiUVZKn1
The little voice in my head, it screams it351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJlhfH2B8t
"This was their choice"351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2h9bln21d6
And to be lonely all the time is mine351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqskg00rVt
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBlnikLkzx
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAstaLX3n7
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMks97pSWkM
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECRfL3CwGk
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2droHdNoB
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvlQuOH6XU
I wish somebody would call351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVW7k5LWRC
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxnzJ35w0h4
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2KdDNCY0j
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbqJwArZN2A
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡobn25Q3RPo
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4ZNpsx3v7
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 351Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfBWXc6AvN
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
and then Add to home screen.