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眨眼間,糸師冴已帶起一陣小小的勁風,左右嗑球從糸師凜身旁切過。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsXFvh1OcD2
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——好快。運球比在日本時俐落太多了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcF3qxB2rQ4
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哥哥跟在日本時相比,已經是完全不同境界了⋯⋯41Please respect copyright.PENANAje4eUHEDfH
但現在不是吃驚的時候。41Please respect copyright.PENANAc4aRsByBW4
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糸師凜一瞬間屏住呼吸,雙腳幾乎是本能地啟動,急切地追了上去。他不容許自己再落後。41Please respect copyright.PENANAskg7UwFynH
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——我要擋下來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAK7QvdURS6g
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他擋在哥哥面前,感覺自己的心跳和寒氣混在一起,像是連體溫都被壓低了幾度。41Please respect copyright.PENANAAIyRwGAYk6
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糸師冴的球輕輕一撥,朝左側切出。41Please respect copyright.PENANARL2ywNbJFO
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很好。他預判到了!41Please respect copyright.PENANAEjUlRLpTT7
他知道哥哥會從左側過來!那個節奏、那個角度、那個閃避方式——小時候在家門口練球,他就已經記熟了!41Please respect copyright.PENANAEtKJt3l6Be
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哥哥從左側切入,腳步外閃內閃,他太熟悉了——從小就記得的節奏。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9tkuhnmclX
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他預判對了——41Please respect copyright.PENANAYE8G6Uo0yJ
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但下一秒,他才知道——他錯了,錯得太乾淨了。他連「破綻」的定義都搞錯了。41Please respect copyright.PENANASqiHIi1enp
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糸師冴的身體微微晃了一下,讓人以為他會外切;下一秒,卻瞬間內閃轉身。41Please respect copyright.PENANARaolOBBl3U
糸師凜的重心剛好壓在外側,等他想要調整時——已經來不及了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAnz3ZqDfblG
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哥哥那假動作,根本不是用來「騙」的。它只是用來「誘發錯覺」的——就像彈琴的人不需要真的踩下踏板,光是那一瞬的手指佈局,就足以讓你產生旋律已經轉調的錯覺。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlahk0tZeXW
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他根本沒看到哥哥什麼時候轉向的。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOC0e3keDHe
只有球影一閃,耳邊風聲擦過,被人抽走了他自以為把握住的未來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFQTGVSTTO4
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他的腳還沒踏實,球已經不在眼前。41Please respect copyright.PENANASGpT2oZWRb
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下一秒,他看到哥哥的身影拉遠,像是整片雪地都順著他的步伐。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7OzAOoBRTK
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——不只是技巧的問題。41Please respect copyright.PENANAuqHeWr9NsN
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他感覺自己像是站在一條錯的樂譜上,看著一首根本沒學過的交響樂在眼前展開,而他甚至連第一個音符的讀法都還搞不清楚。41Please respect copyright.PENANAbBZ4vq8KvT
哥哥每一個動作都太流暢,像是經過無數次打磨過的語言,快得像從未停頓的句子。糸師冴沒有一絲遲疑,每個轉身、每次變向,都是提前思考好幾步的連鎖反應。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcJ062P2C7S
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他的本能,在哥哥面前,什麼都不是。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9gq4zIqeq9
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他這才明白,他與哥哥之間的差距,不只是球速、不只是技巧——41Please respect copyright.PENANAdnilcNtzBL
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——哥哥的運球是「從世界那邊帶回來的東西」。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7b7MrpHOzB
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於是他慢了。他的所有一切,他的視野根本跟不上。41Please respect copyright.PENANAgTSBAnXTYc
他看似預判成功,但他不明白的是——那只是哥哥「讓」他預判的方向。41Please respect copyright.PENANAqEyOgPIcaF
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他什麼都沒擋下。41Please respect copyright.PENANAE9NAzyZHRB
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哥哥的球風早已融入世界級比賽的壓迫節奏;而他,無論多努力,都還沒真正踏出過那一步。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyXDKusWxXh
他還沒有見過那種比賽的「速度」,本身是怎麼毀滅一切判斷的。他從沒參與過那樣的比賽,也沒遇過這樣的對手,所以他的反應永遠只會在「以為自己正確」的那一秒內崩潰。41Please respect copyright.PENANANLiyx5JBC9
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糸師冴的鞋底掃過混著雪的草地,乾淨俐落地收住了球,糸師凜連反應都來不及——41Please respect copyright.PENANAoRwOtdNWRu
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他只聽見鞋釘劃過濕草的聲音,還沒抬起腳,那顆球就已經不見了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAVPmPd4cUjx
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他甚至沒能碰到一根鞋帶。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOW0cUsqZux
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——這不是他記憶中的哥哥了。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6taRxSSNd5
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眼前這個人,帶球的時候根本沒在看對手,彷彿視線整場都貼著球道,而所有人只是他節奏中的障礙物——不會讓他改變路線,也不會成為理由。41Please respect copyright.PENANAG0pyIj8o2I
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糸師凜這四年學會的所有技巧,在這場雪裡,都成了毫無重量的紙片。41Please respect copyright.PENANASEwco5txn1
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根本來不及碰到球,糸師冴已用腳背將球收停,轉身的動作快得像一道殘影。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjdCtzuXNZg
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——這就是現在的哥哥?真正見識過世界的水準⋯⋯41Please respect copyright.PENANAwnBtyAwXxb
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哥哥早就超越他很多很多了。他完全沒有反應的空間。幾乎是照著本能,糸師凜再次從後面追著糸師冴跑。41Please respect copyright.PENANA0YXraezrmu
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「——哥哥!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAxWHcVAVQs4
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距離禁區只差幾尺,糸師冴卻停了下來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQ2BhWkIVa1
糸師凜追上來,勉強撐住快要跪下的雙腿,慌亂地擋在哥哥面前。與其說是在防守,不如說只是弟弟想找哥哥講話。41Please respect copyright.PENANA3l1w8dbj2g
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「為什麼、為什麼呀——哥哥!」41Please respect copyright.PENANAt1lndGqbaD
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糸師冴再次啟動。糸師凜下意識撐開身體,試圖封鎖路線。糸師冴蹲低身形,右腳輕勾——41Please respect copyright.PENANATmU7dMh1Qd
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「凜,我不在的這四年期間。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAeQaykiqPCg
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穿襠過人,球從糸師凜的雙腳之間輕盈掠過。41Please respect copyright.PENANAq8lGhGWA27
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聲音輕飄飄地落下時,哥哥早已越過他,直逼禁區。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJl2ngBKQlv
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「——你都在日本做了什麼?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAbkP6fwCtwL
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啪——球網震動。41Please respect copyright.PENANAlD0OAYtjsA
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贏了。哥哥贏了。41Please respect copyright.PENANA32sf6RXhnb
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「結束了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAIaDVqmtyT0
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糸師冴對糸師凜說。回頭時眼神清冷,語氣裡沒有一絲情緒,彷彿這一切只是例行公事。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUlPrMyrFCS
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糸師凜蹲坐在地上,胸口劇烈起伏。他望著哥哥幾乎沒有停下的背影,過去四年的畫面像是決堤般湧入腦海。41Please respect copyright.PENANAE9BvlTGiI1
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——冬天早晨,自己一個人在操場上練體能,指尖凍到失去知覺還不肯停下來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsr2CvkwSmk
——他不參與任何社交。在所有人都離開後,堅持自己練習到夜半。41Please respect copyright.PENANAr4fsvx6ZnJ
——那些日子裡,他一邊補上哥哥留下的空缺,一邊學著咬牙讓自己成為「球隊的支柱」。41Please respect copyright.PENANADhOf0S0YAN
——記者說他是「糸師冴的影子」,也說「即使是影子,也得發光才行」。41Please respect copyright.PENANApJWlHHvmD4
——他把那些話都吞下去,一個字都沒反駁。他只告訴自己:41Please respect copyright.PENANA4joblM9jEI
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「再撐一下,哥哥會看到的——他會知道,我真的追上去了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA0pcmKgpdsY
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他不只一次地幻想過:某場比賽結束後,轉身看見熟悉的少年站在場邊,說一句「踢得不錯嘛,凜」。41Please respect copyright.PENANAbBvhFMYFC5
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他以為只要自己夠努力,哥哥會以他為傲。會驕傲地說「不愧是我弟」。他們會並肩站上世界的賽場,一起迎向同一束聚光燈。41Please respect copyright.PENANA9wEFbYkRmd
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可剛剛發生的那一切,把這些年他撐起來的信念,一腳踩碎。41Please respect copyright.PENANAmbDfyFwpw8
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糸師凜勉強地笑了一下,語氣裡卻沒有半點勝負的戲謔。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyZkVV5vy9y
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「哥哥,等一下⋯⋯」41Please respect copyright.PENANAbxrcTSNwrE
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聲音輕得幾乎被風雪吞沒。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7b4Ik8H28E
輸給哥哥,他沒話說。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7gCwcy0GrX
因為他們本來就說好,是哥哥要成為世界第一。他只想——哪怕站在他身邊就好。41Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1GiiBxjvk
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「哥哥不在的時候,我非常努力。為了成為日本第一,跟哥哥一樣被挖角。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAzaD7knKyYd
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他抬起頭,看向那個他從小就仰望的身影,眼神不再只是崇拜。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyp1Yy5VvTB
還多了點什麼。可能是痛,也可能是害怕。41Please respect copyright.PENANADL2vqA3da5
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「我努力讓自己替代哥哥,為了球隊而戰⋯⋯」41Please respect copyright.PENANA4Bg6wvDCeJ
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他咬著牙,不讓眼淚落下。但鼻音已經壓不住了。41Please respect copyright.PENANA7NzuLaQl7Y
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「我只是想——當你再回來的時候,我就能跟你說⋯⋯」41Please respect copyright.PENANAgF1Yi8aIuc
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比起落敗的失落,糸師凜的眼神更像是乞求。41Please respect copyright.PENANAEp6VYwcGNd
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「按照約定,我都做到了。我成為日本第一了——」41Please respect copyright.PENANAMUaZTs9v5Q
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他慢慢垂下頭,做最後的掙扎。41Please respect copyright.PENANAtgR9Idlc30
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這四年他很努力。一邊學著被肯定,一邊學著承擔從未有人教他怎麼承擔的東西。他拼命練習、拼命表現,背後卻永遠空著一個缺口。41Please respect copyright.PENANAvmXHCPRFv4
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——所以他拼命變成哥哥的身影。41Please respect copyright.PENANAFjO9U8Rqoh
忍受沒有哥哥的球場,忍受那些了無生趣的比賽;他撐過一個人上場、撐過所有人的比較和嘲諷。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOfLtFt095r
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只為了——和哥哥一起走到世界的球場上。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQS2uFRe212
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「我真的很努力啊,哥哥。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAHmWfZzNmrY
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說出這句話時,聲音終於破碎了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAcO1v37bqGl
他像是被時間抽空了一樣,整個人癱坐在雪地裡。41Please respect copyright.PENANAyp3WEwNOvT
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「我一直、一直都想——跟你一起踢球。如果不能一起的話,我就⋯⋯我就不知道,還有什麼理由繼續踢下去了⋯⋯」41Please respect copyright.PENANACkzkH7kbXj
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頹然地坐在地上,他雙手無力垂放在身前,全身疲軟得像被一場太長的夢掏空了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAK7RD0LfJk5
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雪一直落,落得更大了。41Please respect copyright.PENANA6UMrAhIxAA
落在他肩膀上、落在他指尖上。41Please respect copyright.PENANAQuY7heaQS6
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「——那就放棄啊。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAudMaVS5Bql
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這句話落下時,比雪還冷。41Please respect copyright.PENANAUAQIkjH49X
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糸師凜猛地抬頭,眼睛瞪大,像是根本不敢相信自己聽見了什麼。41Please respect copyright.PENANA1Zfb0gOvUr
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糸師冴站在雪中,沒有動。他的表情平淡得像霜結在眼角,眼神沒有任何光點。41Please respect copyright.PENANAAtOWLJNDCH
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「真無聊。你以為會被安慰嗎——白痴嗎你?」41Please respect copyright.PENANAhZVL3OzexO
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起風了。風雪斜斜刮過兩人之間,擋不住哥哥寒風刺骨的表情。41Please respect copyright.PENANAv50DWMZKqr
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「什麼日本第一,什麼替代哥哥⋯⋯聽到我想吐。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAbBrPmoM2fi
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語尾輕輕一斷,像是強忍太久的噁心情緒終於洩出來。41Please respect copyright.PENANAF3waDWvQ5w
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「你只是運氣好,投胎成了我弟——」41Please respect copyright.PENANAqDu6jwm4rX
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他像吐出壓抑太久的怨氣,語氣低而冷。41Please respect copyright.PENANAOhx9oM7nk2
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「對我來說,你已經是個既礙眼又麻煩的弟弟了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAalo4GGOm7E
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風雪更大了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAzRRPGCClk8
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「別再把我當你踢球的理由了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAfalhGIvjjv
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他經過糸師凜,腳步穩得像是已經計算好每一寸雪地的摩擦力。41Please respect copyright.PENANAsNVj8iO8zT
而他經過的那一刻,沒看弟弟一眼。41Please respect copyright.PENANADAYhylsJXd
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「踢不好球的你,沒有任何價值。」41Please respect copyright.PENANAfmg6iSCSYI
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糸師凜的心跳漏了一拍。41Please respect copyright.PENANA1mCEer9MnS
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「滾吧,凜。」41Please respect copyright.PENANACXpgu24Yxv
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那句話砸下去,像是一記釘子,釘在他支撐了四年的夢正中央。41Please respect copyright.PENANAF79xu5EPXC
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糸師冴走向場邊,停在那只擱置在雪裡的行李箱前。他拉起手把,力道像是在拖動什麼沉重的東西。41Please respect copyright.PENANAkltJ2GqDLn
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他站直時,回頭看了一眼。41Please respect copyright.PENANAP1AI598gpy
那一眼裡沒有恨,沒有怒,甚至沒有勝利者的快感——41Please respect copyright.PENANAG9qI7e7AC6
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只有理智。41Please respect copyright.PENANAGZ5XjNW9GP
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是壓抑過後、乾乾淨淨的理智,把所有遲疑都封死在眼底。41Please respect copyright.PENANAaZGUMCS2SB
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「我的人生已經不需要你了。」41Please respect copyright.PENANA9Xovz1XOzd
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那聲音一落下,雪驟然下大。41Please respect copyright.PENANARkVk2Ha10E
風打在糸師凜的臉上,他卻沒轉身避開。41Please respect copyright.PENANAXip4beDY0y
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他努力了四年的夢,在那句話裡崩塌了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAKl69mVCjl7
他努力了四年的自己,被哥哥一句話,放棄了。41Please respect copyright.PENANAjbEPQwThBo
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雪落進眼睛裡,他沒有擦掉。41Please respect copyright.PENANAWrQCT2AyAf
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因為,那個會替他擦掉眼淚的哥哥——已經不在了。