天亮，上班。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvL9I0a1VO
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPupqt9f7v
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4q7D8nzJbA
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoTumYuxCsR
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ726njYekjL
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcSJ4oGkKd
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc41CvE5LvY
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZw1vmR0dI
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFTQQObmJS
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnh2jvImQRa
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYYqHZaskj
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUh4jnh0v8
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fhipk2mAp
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVogjK9ojGZ
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2skXbbTGp
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUNzzb4urJ2
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzDyUc3URF
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUcu64ZVrK
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXoVXfM64A5
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpnnWinAQRb
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還是……945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YwXLDn8z8
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjLCk8LLVWj
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7H4bPNUqm
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HYTJrN5In
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7s765uhFfH
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPZPdhxpAuT
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCuILoQnry
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BswWO2eI9
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD92lhtHWOX
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快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV4oBMjl5L
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YJGI3bDw0
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ShYPATsLa
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdt8onXSVSN
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvP5IxSKaAP
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe2x61lDEaU
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLUdqry2zU
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuRyZf6m5N
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSHpvJGNeyF
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLTkzxjblMj
醉倒。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWUuW6ZbhF
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0r2wvnofe
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AVOpij0Gf
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD57Kw01kQf
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOkpoGgBLnJ
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZN8KNC7Uha
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnB4XHg2Jlc
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEW6KsRx8A0
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfuVCzrSFH8
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa62FjzHzHS
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbATrdk7EnY
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThnKUFsJcb
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcFlZVwx7rt
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6KhkKfBn2
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrIkiaVCW8
死寂。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZkR0EbwEO
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IfueaurSr
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5AvI0WHVf
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OBS1aLeW6
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktuqYpjGYf
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjm3Ra3LISW
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5u6Nq8YxrG
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHGXb8Khdk
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXX6mljVKzA
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPouRA79ZXY
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouHN7G1cjP
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2n5GDuMCEn
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgfUop2YMV
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8gfxFY7vTd
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrIYWRjOzr
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRdp0QGDnA
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYvWevRBbJ
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRTz2JQ81Ci
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1EXxs3aK5
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZQSPfywJO
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTSa8VIXKN
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMoo9b1yFuC
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQb5kSFEuQ
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwUF9xLEky
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmOhDFbrm79
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcW70zqOe0
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xWMafNkdc
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hUBX0a62e
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVGLpH0cpC7
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknt0RqVYkJ
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhu4mKSAgM
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWHsI81L7YG
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTO4n22Bw3
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaJWRU1Rgk
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQ6RErav98
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaVXLrFm7Z
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVEjVYmG8mJ
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6VWfM4tooS
「在你體內。」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSAa1mgm1L
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「甚麼？」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfACKaaJTYo
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8K0kk4rqJC
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlivpOi5Sr
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIw0ffO6CF
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVuuW13dtNM
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxomNYZtf4
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZvil7PYor
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHTPGQywmG
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHvCQSiXgZ
「誰？」另一聲音反問。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhhGoZcpeY
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YOV3In16t
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHr4w1HUt1
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靜。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvVTIc8SvW
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vhIJcA254
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGYhFFxqkI
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcTw8BQQo7
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeVXrQDfCB
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGiHiizN5S2
我：「我有精神病？」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShnhc7va3C
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6nNYTHQly
醫：「是情緒病。」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kMkNrHlBj
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTZkrnh3j6
我：「怎麼辦？」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljb4MaWxmv
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcahI4fSQFl
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6sSWfOjxU
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00gMqC7nCj
我：「謝謝醫生。」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaaDZuvW2Yx
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyV3LfyxTOi
醫：「不用謝。」945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFCSmEhbBKj
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyAcKqaoPYy
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9W8DQtjD5t
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzC25phCp3d
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Cn6XwKyfk
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27vic6o6xi
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxb2sRbSqci
945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubaUgHRlZL
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；945Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Djs8uC8cQ
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